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[sid] => 97803
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => I'm Still Alive
[time] => 2005-06-12 18:50:28
[hometext] => Another old piece. It pains me to read back on these for I realize just how truly unhappy I have always been and it saddens me all the more.
[bodytext] => What would I give for a bit of peace or at least some peace of mind? What have I not given? I've given my all and know no peace of any kind. A darkness gnaws within me. We wicked are granted no rest. To cease the ache, I'd take my heart and I'd rip it from my chest. You see, I've got to find some solace. I've lost my will to carry on... I cling to what is left of innocence because the wholesomeness is gone. And now... I tire of my nights spent crying, The intimacy lonliness and I share. Why couldn't one kind soul give me a chance and take the time to care? My own desperation makes me sick. Am I so incomplete? I'm incapable of being weak; alone, Of feeling obsolete. How could anyone understand me when I can't comprehend myself? I dread being left and then forgotten gathering dust upon the shelf. All I have are words and I read them in my head. God though I know I'm still alive. I mostly feel half dead. And I hate it. [comments] => 2 [counter] => 207 [topic] => 75 [informant] => KayeRains [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 10 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => anguished )
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