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[title] => This Is How It's Been For Me
[time] => 2002-12-01 19:30:00
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[bodytext] => “This Is How It’s Been For Me” - by J. Samuelson Copyright©2001 01/31
I’m screaming for a reason No one seems to hear me I’m all alone as always The darkness choking in on me Surrounded on all sides it seems The walls are coming down on me I’m crumbling into lost pieces Of all that I used to be Nothing makes any good sense Love is always out of my reach Always something stopping it It never seems to agree with me I give it always if I feel it It never seems to be returned When it has been, it’s been so complicated By things beyond my control I’ve only wanted a true love One that goes both ways between One that is right and possible One that could give me my life back I’ve waited, and I’ve found it One that left before it really began Now one that is just so unlikely Where is the one I deserve? Am I floating in some dream world Where it’s maybe to never be? It could be it’s not meant for me I am just to face this reality? It seems the more that I try The less I ever seem to achieve Maybe I’m destined to fail in love Someday, I’ll reflect and I’ll know. But I hate being so alone sometimes I know I have so much love to share Maybe I’m not allowed to give it It always blows up in my face I never seem to do things right It always backfires for me But when I have found something good Again, it ends because of me Why am I cursed for a life time? Why does love have to hate me? I always am giving in to it It only seems to shut me out Maybe my heart is defective Meant to give, and never receive That’s what I am beginning to believe This Is How It’s Been For Me Love is only ever a disaster I maybe just try to give too much It’s only being the way I am This Is How It’s Been For Me. I might have to build my own shelter And learn to keep myself in it I’m feeling so hexed in my love life This Is How It’s Been For me. [comments] => 3 [counter] => 204 [topic] => 22 [informant] => Joker17 [notes] => [ihome] => 1 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => LostLove )
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