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[aid] => mick
[title] => Enough is Enough
[time] => 2004-11-15 13:14:37
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[bodytext] => This is not an easy fight. I am not an inside lines, inside box kind of girl.... I am delicate and complicated and completely out of control… I am battling within myself to stay strong for my sanity. (I want to keep it, trust me) I am crippling my reasoning being weakly philosophical biting my tongue most days.... I don't see any other way. This feels like a frozen fire - Hot and cold and permanently blazing something awful inside me. This feels like upside down regardless - not safe or sound or stressless. I'm pushing on - getting thru the days just barely; Watching you walking and telling you I feel okay when I don't. Had I not ignored what I knew I feared would happen definitely for sure, I'd have been aggravation free by now - a little more pure, even. But this is me instead. Craving attention from things that are dead. Dragging along sensationalized, Emotionalized tears falling down. Emptying out my buckets all over the ground. Fitting into a bigger picture of myself in this space. Learning opposite of “all over the place”. Zipping up. Enough is enough. [comments] => 2 [counter] => 144 [topic] => 61 [informant] => Red_October [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 9 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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