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[title] => Gone
[time] => 2004-11-07 19:10:35
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[bodytext] => As I sit here alone and wonder Red eyes full of tears I wonder why can’t I be happy? Why is only my outside smiling? Inside I feel like I’m dying, slowly breaking down Nothing just seems to matter anymore My friends and family are there, probably the only things keeping me going Everything else is just hopeless Pointless, a waste of time Why repeat high school classes in college? It’s a waste of my time It’s a waste of my money I want to start a career, do something I enjoy Not classes I suck at and do badly in and depress me I want a job, I want money I hate relying on people, especially my parents to get by I’ve depended on them my whole life I don’t want to take money from them now I want love, I want someone who cares Someone to help feel this void, this emptiness In both my heart and life I don’t like this feeling that something, or someone is missing Someone is missing, Justin, the one I gave my heart to But that is over, has been over But he still has my heart So many days I just feel like curling up and sleeping thru the day Not wanting to face the day, face reality, face my life There is no happiness anymore It has all been drained from my life over time Now I sit here, alone and cry With these feelings no one can understand With these feelings that wont go away Some days, days like today I just want to disappear To never have existed Then I wouldn’t feel the way I feel I wouldn’t feel like I would be better off dead I already feel like I’m dying inside I once thrived for happiness But it’s all gone And I sometimes wish I were too If I were gone I wouldn’t hurt If I were gone I wouldn’t be crying myself to sleep If I were gone everything would be fine But that’s just it I’m not gone I’m still stuck here living in this life that has turned into a nightmare I want to escape I want to be invisible Cause no one knows you No one sees you No one hurts you No one knows you exist You can live your life how you wish No tears, no heartache, no sadness That life sounds much better That’s it.. I wish I were gone! [comments] => 0 [counter] => 165 [topic] => 48 [informant] => fastpitchqt [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
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