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[sid] => 61199
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Anxiety
[time] => 2004-08-24 03:40:36
[hometext] => I wrote this right after an anxiety attack, i tried to explain the feeling of it
[bodytext] => time goes to fast time stands still a mouse-like heartbeat way to fast tis mine inside oh please not again I feel like I am in slow motion and everyone else is going to fast I bite my nails to far down and chew my skin till it bleeds the feeling that’s inside its like my head wants to explode "its ok coping skills remember" um...no I don’t remember thanks if u could say them again I feel like a rat on acid dear not really wanting to "remember much" I’m remembering a lot this second or was it 5 minutes ago this thought I thunk? I remember things I did oh man! I remember a lot of stuff not that I am trying mind you it just happens sometimes finally its all slowing down the people around me are going normal speed or I guess its me who is catching up I lay on my bed and cry I hate this I wish I could fix me but pills they want to give me I wont take them anymore its been to long I’ve been on my own I can do it on my own I’ll deal with my anxiety for now I need to sleep to remember how to breath [comments] => 2 [counter] => 245 [topic] => 21 [informant] => lessa [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 0 [associated] => [topicname] => Lifepoems )
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