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[sid] => 53958
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => a crack, not a wall
[time] => 2004-06-28 00:13:25
[hometext] => her whole life, a crack, not a wall
[bodytext] => tap tap tap tap leaky faucet words never quite quit just grate on nerves set to stun (the words are liquid halos ringing my head like a distant planet warm squeezing tightly like the sweaty hands of a married man) staring out a one-sided window at the bricks that stare back in biting my lip as i examine tiny cracks in the mortar wondering if maybe just maybe i'm a crack and not a wall like a house of cards i fold (i cave) to the will of the Other to the whim of the Master manipulated by any hand that tugs my dirty strings (perfect teeth paint-on smile the wall i guard the crack i am) these words aren't mine these words were never mine out like another woman while he sleeps, unaware whoring myself for words i can't beLIEve degrading myself for a lie would you love me if i said your name? could you love me once the morning comes? can you love me once you've stripped me down? will you hold me for a little while? another night another knife held to my wrist (once gone, not missed) this time too late as it sinks in peeking through the crack of a thin wall vein bursting gushing like a hymen (i was only twelve only worth a five) the cut looks like a crack in a wall what they payed to have just a crack in the wall my whole life just a crack not a wall (if you can find me it's free tonight) [comments] => 2 [counter] => 225 [topic] => 36 [informant] => Cancer [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 0 [associated] => [topicname] => Suicide )
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