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For all to relate
Contributed by
damian
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Wednesday, 29th August 2012 @ 08:47:01 PM in AEST
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Darkness, it surrounds me
Its veil is from which I cannot flee
Im so scared, but what will be, will be
Will I still be here on the morrow?
Or will my shoulders be overcome with pain and sorrow
This doesnt make sense
It lacks in depth, it has no dense
But it is like my mind
Have a look and pain is all you will find
Can you feel the emotion in every single wave?
Can you see me be crushed, no matter how much I gave?
How can it be, that I am still here?
Is it because I have this suicidal fear
Ive never been good enough, so why would this change
My pain and panic attacks are the only thing ever in range
I just need to know why I feel like this
If I was to leave, is anything here that I would miss
See what you dont know is I think about it every night
Will I make it through, or will I never again see the light
Will I fall through as more pain comes, or will I continue this impossible fight?
We all have these insecurities but for me its deeper
And every time I fall it seems to be a little steeper
You tell me to trust, but how can I trust you
How many times have you let me down so far, is it more than two?
Im ***** over it, so I just hit the wall again
And the pain cancels out the anger, with a meaningful pang
Why, why, why, why
Thats right, Im not afraid to cry
Because I saw some horrors, things you could never ever think
And its this images that spring to mind, with a light as movement as a wink
Everyday about 5 attacks come
I stay calm on the surface, while on the inside I yearn to scream and run
You dont understand, mate after mate he watched die
And promise after promise, he watched turn to lie
10% of you will relate
The rest of you are the cause for this fear and hate
I wish I was dumb, a mindless being
Maybe then I could block out all emotions from what Im seeing
There are 3 sides to me; most of you will ever see the first
First is the happy fake me that fills societies thirst
The second is the loving caring me, the one that would die for my girl
The only thing that makes me happy, she is the perfect girl
And the third, which is never shown because you will never understand
The one which brings you down silently and the more you fight the quicker you drown
Its like a sick twisted type of quicksand
Most nights Im so overcome with this visions and nightmares
That I lose all sense of being, and all my physical wares
Awake screaming and twisting, as it feels like my hearts being torn
Day after day, night after night, Im left to mourn
No matter what you say, how much you think you understand and know
There is always more of me which I will never show
Can you feel my heartbeat start to quicken
Can you see my blood begin to thicken?
As every beat sends adrenaline and fear into my soul
Creating an even bigger black hole
Never trust anyone, we are selfish things
Its like trusting a bee, nave to its stings
I just want to know why, why my life holds all this bull *****
Why day after day to I have to have these fits
Why do I cop all this, was I born to die?
Was I born under a broken angel, too hurt to fly?
Why is it just when Im feeling okay, there comes sadness tidal?
Why is it I am always feeling suicidal
I have so many questions, but I dont know how much time is left
At the next corner of the road should I turn right, or left?
Its the little things in life I dunno how to handle anymore
I just need to find something worth fighting for
Anything at all, I just need to believe
Before I tumble to my death, as horrifically picturesque as an autumn leave
Now this is for anyone who has ever felt this way,
Who has these fears inside them, or because other people make them pay
At the end of the path, there will be something that has made all the fighting worth it
Something or someone that fills that empty pit
Its almost like you are being rewarded for passing the test
And from then on you will always be given the best
So keep your head up, when things look impossibly down
And keep on your unique smile, lose the frown
Because the truth is you are your own worst enemy and it kills you
I hope one day, you survive to see this is true
Copyright ©
damian
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2012-08-29 20:47:01]
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Re: For all to relate
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by plasticherry on
Wednesday, 29th August 2012 @ 11:10:54 PM AEST
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| Nicely expressed. Its full of emotion. |
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Re: For all to relate
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by thehotshotpoet on
Thursday, 30th August 2012 @ 07:11:38 AM AEST
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I do seem to understand this poem but the only part I didnt understand was this girl that you would do anything for but at the same time you say noone knows all sides of you?well your answer is in your own words my friend,if you love her & want her to feel the same she must know all sides of you & the hard part is she will have to want to except you as you are,but you must be willing to offer her the chance to see for herself good or bad,very nice work
thanks for sharing
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