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[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Alone With One's Thoughts
[time] => 2011-04-01 21:17:22
[hometext] => Attempt to put on paper what goes on in my over-analytical brain sometimes
[bodytext] => In a constant state of emotional crisis, Can't seem to find what the right path in life is, Just want to stop, take a second and breathe, Find one good thing, just an ounce of ease in this depressing, sordid state I inhabit that presents me with joy but won't let me grab it and tortures and teases and laughs at failed effort but leaves me alone to absorb this built-up hurt from feeling completely empty and useless afraid I'll keep missing what the essential truth is to having a life without strife or estrangement, to not have to drink to make worries seem distant, to not have to spend every day every minute obsessing over what my life could have been if I did one thing different made one less mistake, stopped being so cautious with each choice that I make, but what can I do, I'm here, path is set I'm stuck here reliving every single regret, I just want a glimpse, just a taste of contentment, no longer to stare at my life with resentment, to no longer fear being stuck here alone with my thoughts that spit acid on hope and corrode the naivety that once believed great things awaited and knew without question that one day I'd make it, but with each passing day that passion subsides gives less incentive to bother to try to get out of this rut and find cause to continue this endless search for a way to get through this life and not have to struggle alone to find where I fit, to find my true home. [comments] => 2 [counter] => 171 [topic] => 61 [informant] => zred7619 [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 10 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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