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[aid] => mick
[title] => It's Started
[time] => 2009-11-17 03:44:25
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[bodytext] => It’s started and I’m frightened Daily, I can feel myself changing – withdrawing into loneliness Returning me back to a me I’d almost forgotten existed A me I once knew so well, but left behind long ago An old friend stood greeting me with familiar outstretched arms Offering to help me once again isolate & distance myself from all feeling For when you cannot feel - you can no longer hurt I love you still - surprisingly And yes I’m still in love with you - always will be But my love is now different than it was before - I know that now I can never give all of myself again –what do I have left to give? Never could I entrust my deepest thoughts and fears anymore Just as before I met you I have no wish to live the rest of my life like that Never will anyone get so close as to be able to hurt me so badly again It’s not how anyone would ever choose to be - but needs must It’s merely me retreating to my lifelong safety net A survival net I never ever thought I’d have a use for again Such a shame, such a waste of my life So just as a flower blooms and then dies with each yearly cycle I have to find a way to build myself again – begin to grow once more So that one day - I may possibly get the chance to flower again [comments] => 2 [counter] => 145 [topic] => 32 [informant] => andrewhs [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 10 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 0 [associated] => [topicname] => SadPoetry )
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