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[sid] => 14748
[catid] => 1
[aid] => Mick
[title] => confusion
[time] => 2003-03-22 18:05:00
[hometext] => i'm sure you all know what it's like to be confused and frustrated with who you are...but it seems like no one else can understand and we never try to explain..well here's my attempt at explaining
[bodytext] => So confused and so lost too
Where to go, what to do. Who can I trust... Who is there to lean on It hurts so bad. Why can't someone just come and scoop me off my feet.. And hold me and tell me they are there for me. Why do I feel so alone when I really am not Why must I push people so far away from me that its impossible for them to help. I'm so confused So lost, So used. It's all my fault because I've been abused... So many lies and all these failed tries My lack of success brings no surprise. I apologize to all of you For what I do, All the pain and worries I must cause, And do not deny it because I know I do I'm so confused I am so scared, there's so much there I want to tell but I dare not I know not who I can trust, But I must trust you... But I can't... But then I hurt you.... Oh so confused I wish I could cry with someone, Just sit down and bawl But no, whenever things come up with me I sit there and grin ..that big ulgy grin... I'm fine, I'm okay, leave me alone, some other day...... That's what I say- But inside I'm cryin, I'm bad, I hurt, comfort me, never leave I'm so confused I wish I could make people happy, And make them feel as precious as they can make me.... But now I cannot even do that deed.. I'm so confused Where have I gone wrong? Oh so fat, oh so ugly, Such a failure, such a misleader You sit and try to tell me I'm good, That I am going somewhere big in life, But no, you aren't listening I have lied so well That you cannot even believe me when I correct my own awful lies..... I am ugly through and through, there is no hope, this is true, I am stuck being blue. I'm really trying, I really am Perhaps I need to take more time to do things I enjoy so I get out of this jam... I'm so confused Who am I? What have I become? Why am I here? Where am I going? When is my time? I am lost for good. I will wait here for now Wishing for someone to find me, Whomever this is, the one to find me, hurry please.. I’ll be waiting, If it’s more than one, all the better Either way, I’ll be waiting Wishing, waiting, time is frozen Loneliness will eat at me So if when you arrive I am not all there Give me time, I will come back Gain my trust, and hold me up If my body lies there limp and lifeless, do not give up I beg of you, come to me anyway for I will not be dead quite yet [comments] => 1 [counter] => 184 [topic] => 36 [informant] => lostforgood [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => Suicide )
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