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[aid] => mick
[title] => Internal Tug of War
[time] => 2007-09-27 22:14:47
[hometext] => it's about the journey of many......................
[bodytext] => I feel so insignificant, so weak, so small in my pain and confusion, I am missing it all This life won't stand still---it waits for no one what I've lost, what is gone Oh God, what have I done? I can't do it all over I can't get that time back so what is left now? all I feel.....is all that I lack I am stuck within myself every door leads nowhere like the walls are all barren and the road ends right there as these tears fall down my cheeks and I yearn to be free will I ever, really ever be allowed to be me? I could take that step I could change it all but at what cost would they suffer---turn their world upside down? because their mom needs a new start? how fair does that sound? It's not fair at all and so very hard to do is it selfish? is it wrong? to put them both through? I am trying to wait to get out from under myself I could start to live now, make the most of this time but I can't seem to move forward when all I want is to rewind Where will this all lead me? I know there's something in store I'll find it somehow....I'll keep searching for more..... [comments] => 1 [counter] => 277 [topic] => 61 [informant] => searchingmyself [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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