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[sid] => 132746
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => There aren't Words
[time] => 2007-03-15 16:12:32
[hometext] => *no notes... not now...*
[bodytext] => the loss of myself horrible bewilderment i cannot bare me and yet he tries and i hate god, I hate to say it but I don't think his trying is helping i want to stay in love but I know I'm going to f**k it up and thats the last thing I wanna do just hold me close at least for now because I know I'm going to go deeper into the tunnel of self-hurt I've deprived myself of anything worth while and still when I get something like it I cannot keep it you promise me you'll be there you're not giving up on me but that doesn't help not when I've given up on myself and first I thought this was great it hasn't changed you haven't changed if you had, it would be for the better why must I mess things up everything that matters once i escape from the harshness of myself and fall into you and yet somehow, in the midst of all that is real all that is true all that is love there's a claw grabbing at my ankle begging me back into depression I know you can try and I want to be with you more than anything please make this last I'm trying not to give up trying not to give in i want to be with you and yet, I'm so afraid I will destroy you you're strong, I know and you'll bare through it, for me But I'm not sure if I can say the same I'm trying. I'm trying so hard. To the point that it hurts. I'm not even saying you're not worth it. You are. so beautiful. so amazing. I'm saying I'm not worth it. I'm a waste of f**king time. I'm bringing you down Don't say I'm not, I'm a giant lie I love you so much it hurts me And the last thing I want is for this to end I'm trying, baby, to keep this alive but it's so hard when I'm dying I love you so much, so please help me Try harder than you've imagined because I can't help myself Too many words and thoughts fueled by confusion loss of mindset trying to stay on track with you I don't want to leave you [comments] => 1 [counter] => 169 [topic] => 32 [informant] => xXdeadXpoetXx [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => SadPoetry )
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