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    [title] => SORRINESSENTIAL (TORMENTALITY) /SORE ACHING WORDS/
    [time] => 2004-05-01 09:38:14
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    [bodytext] => I want to say to all<br />
How I see the World ,<br />
Through the tears<br />
Through my fear<br />
 <br />
The sensitive moved to tears understand me<br />
I'm in search of the light on my way<br />
On the bridge across the river of longing<br />
My mistreated heart reposes <br />
Upon a throne of black gems<br />
It takes the wrong way through the sphere of sorrow<br />
 <br />
Look, there`s a rainbow shining in the sky<br />
But I apprehend just dark hues of a dead lament<br />
And it wets me, oh no !!!<br />
 <br />
I`m afraid like a deprived child<br />
Like a sun-loving burgeon at night<br />
Like an old boat tempest-tossed<br />
Like a poor soul lost<br />
 <br />
I can see demons of demise coming over<br />
They will bury my hopes<br />
And veil them with displumed angel wings<br />
 <br />
I was sad with life<br />
And the exility of dying is a paregoric cure for me<br />
`cos here is my destiny<br />
The heart behind dark clouds<br />
Unseen, only guessed<br />
All the time harassed by my dreams<br />
 <br />
Here is my destiny<br />
With the life-and-death power<br />
Black color for my mind<br />
Too many tears for a day<br />
 <br />
Dolorous eyne of sorrow<br />
Severely face me from the dead vast<br />
As illimitable as the Space<br />
And I ask what tomorrow doesn`t bring<br />
 <br />
So let me die when I always cry<br />
Ill-fated, trampled and grieved<br />
I think about my end to be happy<br />
 <br />
Dark Shade, show me your way, please!<br />
 <br />
"This is the way, short way to the distance<br />
And the cause of languor`s gone<br />
And I'm your shadow<br />
Well, I`m just a touchin` story of your existence as well<br />
I`m just a depressin` loneliness in the castle of autumn rains<br />
I'm just a gloomy mournfulness<br />
I'm just a day close before dusk<br />
And I'll always be your tear red hot by languor, so suffer on!"<br />
 <br />
When I`m sorry and sad <br />
I toss my little stony heart<br />
Into the rough waves <br />
Of my tormentality<br />
 <br />
My soul takes distress call<br />
With rancour for the life<br />
Thunderstruck from the blue<br />
The pain in full blow<br />
 <br />
I can hear as the bells strike<br />
Refraining from my tears<br />
Thunderstruck from sombre sky<br />
The pain in full blow<br />
 <br />
That's what I feel and I feel so much<br />
The beads of emotion are reflected in my eyes<br />
I bleed for my dreams and pay the boundless price<br />
Give me just a little time to manage the control of mine<br />
 <br />
It's so hard to find the words<br />
To express the state of my mind<br />
I feel so much<br />
Oh yeah, I feel so much<br />
 <br />
I just want to find the gate to content<br />
And close the one to contempt<br />
To pass through the one to the spring of water of life<br />
 <br />
All problems I tried to solve<br />
Are reflecting in my heart now<br />
I feel so much<br />
Oh yeah, I feel so much<br />
 <br />
The shades of fear<br />
Are reflecting in my eyes<br />
I bleed for my "Why?"<br />
And pay the unspeakable price<br />
 <br />
Life is the veriest wonderworker<br />
However sometimes utterly vestured in black array<br />
And there's no cure for sorrow in the World<br />
I was born for pain !!<br />
 <br />
There are people of sorrow<br />
And I am king of woe<br />
Screaming my verses of exasperation<br />
For the years spent in horror<br />
 <br />
My childhood is washed away by brine<br />
All my child`s dreams were flooded by dark ruby night<br />
I lost everything by my suffering<br />
 <br />
Look into my soul<br />
Look into my dream<br />
As far as your eyes can see<br />
Sorrow ocean, bloody sea<br />
Red rivers rushing up the stream<br />
Penetration of wrath  and nature<br />
The wide of grief <br />
Is often out of sight<br />
 <br />
I am defenceless but I am callous<br />
I am afraid of myself<br />
Who suckled my hate?<br />
My hate is udderless because the hate is me<br />
 <br />
Temperature of my heart is subzero now<br />
Not that it might not to be better to die<br />
Oh, would my emotions be alive!<br />
So forgive to retiring one!<br />
 <br />
Unearthly beauty before the eyes of mine<br />
Gorgeous is all I see and feel<br />
Dazzled by golden diamond of night sky<br />
Lost in ruins of time and my will<br />
But an emission of sadness fills the mind of mine<br />
Like a blazing implement of doom<br />
And the sidereal destiny of mine<br />
Begins slowly loom<br />
 <br />
A crushing grief of deafening silence<br />
In empire of sadness and melancholy frames of mind<br />
Depicts gloomy seclusion of fear<br />
Only with silent singing of birds of midnight<br />
 <br />
As a candidate for a march on through my dreamery<br />
I'm wrapped by dusk on the black swans` wings<br />
Looking for the brilliant throne of the Sun<br />
In these rose orchards of oblivion<br />
 <br />
The minster of night with glittering eyes of the stars<br />
Is the forgetful highbeauty<br />
The ablaze torch of the Moon quells sorrow of mine and dolour<br />
Not a living soul knows anything about nightveiled soul of mine<br />
Desolated by all I go away forever<br />
 <br />
Wrapped by dusk I'm flying on the invisible swans`  wings...<br />
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                                                            <b>SORRINESSENTIAL (TORMENTALITY) SORE ACHING WORDS</b>
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                                                        <font class="tiny"><b>Date:</b> Saturday, 1st May 2004 @ 09:38:14 AM AEST<br><b>Topic:</b> Sad Poetry</font><br><br>
                                                        <font class="content">Contributed By: Falkenbach<br><br>
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                                                       I want to say to all<br />
How I see the World ,<br />
Through the tears<br />
Through my fear<br />
 <br />
The sensitive moved to tears understand me<br />
I'm in search of the light on my way<br />
On the bridge across the river of longing<br />
My mistreated heart reposes <br />
Upon a throne of black gems<br />
It takes the wrong way through the sphere of sorrow<br />
 <br />
Look, there`s a rainbow shining in the sky<br />
But I apprehend just dark hues of a dead lament<br />
And it wets me, oh no !!!<br />
 <br />
I`m afraid like a deprived child<br />
Like a sun-loving burgeon at night<br />
Like an old boat tempest-tossed<br />
Like a poor soul lost<br />
 <br />
I can see demons of demise coming over<br />
They will bury my hopes<br />
And veil them with displumed angel wings<br />
 <br />
I was sad with life<br />
And the exility of dying is a paregoric cure for me<br />
`cos here is my destiny<br />
The heart behind dark clouds<br />
Unseen, only guessed<br />
All the time harassed by my dreams<br />
 <br />
Here is my destiny<br />
With the life-and-death power<br />
Black color for my mind<br />
Too many tears for a day<br />
 <br />
Dolorous eyne of sorrow<br />
Severely face me from the dead vast<br />
As illimitable as the Space<br />
And I ask what tomorrow doesn`t bring<br />
 <br />
So let me die when I always cry<br />
Ill-fated, trampled and grieved<br />
I think about my end to be happy<br />
 <br />
Dark Shade, show me your way, please!<br />
 <br />
"This is the way, short way to the distance<br />
And the cause of languor`s gone<br />
And I'm your shadow<br />
Well, I`m just a touchin` story of your existence as well<br />
I`m just a depressin` loneliness in the castle of autumn rains<br />
I'm just a gloomy mournfulness<br />
I'm just a day close before dusk<br />
And I'll always be your tear red hot by languor, so suffer on!"<br />
 <br />
When I`m sorry and sad <br />
I toss my little stony heart<br />
Into the rough waves <br />
Of my tormentality<br />
 <br />
My soul takes distress call<br />
With rancour for the life<br />
Thunderstruck from the blue<br />
The pain in full blow<br />
 <br />
I can hear as the bells strike<br />
Refraining from my tears<br />
Thunderstruck from sombre sky<br />
The pain in full blow<br />
 <br />
That's what I feel and I feel so much<br />
The beads of emotion are reflected in my eyes<br />
I bleed for my dreams and pay the boundless price<br />
Give me just a little time to manage the control of mine<br />
 <br />
It's so hard to find the words<br />
To express the state of my mind<br />
I feel so much<br />
Oh yeah, I feel so much<br />
 <br />
I just want to find the gate to content<br />
And close the one to contempt<br />
To pass through the one to the spring of water of life<br />
 <br />
All problems I tried to solve<br />
Are reflecting in my heart now<br />
I feel so much<br />
Oh yeah, I feel so much<br />
 <br />
The shades of fear<br />
Are reflecting in my eyes<br />
I bleed for my "Why?"<br />
And pay the unspeakable price<br />
 <br />
Life is the veriest wonderworker<br />
However sometimes utterly vestured in black array<br />
And there's no cure for sorrow in the World<br />
I was born for pain !!<br />
 <br />
There are people of sorrow<br />
And I am king of woe<br />
Screaming my verses of exasperation<br />
For the years spent in horror<br />
 <br />
My childhood is washed away by brine<br />
All my child`s dreams were flooded by dark ruby night<br />
I lost everything by my suffering<br />
 <br />
Look into my soul<br />
Look into my dream<br />
As far as your eyes can see<br />
Sorrow ocean, bloody sea<br />
Red rivers rushing up the stream<br />
Penetration of wrath  and nature<br />
The wide of grief <br />
Is often out of sight<br />
 <br />
I am defenceless but I am callous<br />
I am afraid of myself<br />
Who suckled my hate?<br />
My hate is udderless because the hate is me<br />
 <br />
Temperature of my heart is subzero now<br />
Not that it might not to be better to die<br />
Oh, would my emotions be alive!<br />
So forgive to retiring one!<br />
 <br />
Unearthly beauty before the eyes of mine<br />
Gorgeous is all I see and feel<br />
Dazzled by golden diamond of night sky<br />
Lost in ruins of time and my will<br />
But an emission of sadness fills the mind of mine<br />
Like a blazing implement of doom<br />
And the sidereal destiny of mine<br />
Begins slowly loom<br />
 <br />
A crushing grief of deafening silence<br />
In empire of sadness and melancholy frames of mind<br />
Depicts gloomy seclusion of fear<br />
Only with silent singing of birds of midnight<br />
 <br />
As a candidate for a march on through my dreamery<br />
I'm wrapped by dusk on the black swans` wings<br />
Looking for the brilliant throne of the Sun<br />
In these rose orchards of oblivion<br />
 <br />
The minster of night with glittering eyes of the stars<br />
Is the forgetful highbeauty<br />
The ablaze torch of the Moon quells sorrow of mine and dolour<br />
Not a living soul knows anything about nightveiled soul of mine<br />
Desolated by all I go away forever<br />
 <br />
Wrapped by dusk I'm flying on the invisible swans`  wings...<br />                                                        <br>
                                                        <br>This poem is Copyright © Falkenbach<br><br>
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