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[aid] => mick
[title] => unknown and alone
[time] => 2004-04-01 04:33:09
[hometext] =>
[bodytext] => i walk alone in a twisted world
cus no one else is here
my dreams are visions of the past
that have all but disappeared
my voice has grown so weak
that i can barely even speak
and the past haunts me while i sleep
you see me now
through ice blue eyes
you see me cry
and ask if I'm fine
i look away
and you know I'm not
inside i scream
i scream in pain
i scream in terror
at a past i just cant leave
you know my name
you know what you see
you know what i tell you
but you don't know me
you know when I'm hurting
you know when I'm scared
you know when I'm angry
but you don't know me
cus inside I'm screaming
inside I'm cring
inside I'm fighting
against these demons
of my past
there's a part of me that's hidden
locked deep inside this soul of mine
there's a part of me that frighten
a scared little child
i want to talk
but i don't know what to say
and every time i start to
its as if i lose my voice
so i change the subject
and keep my all my fears to myself
at night while I'm sleeping
my past comes back to haunt me
and in my sleep i scream
i smile now
more than i use to
i cry now not only on the inside
i try to talk
i can a little
but there's still so many things
i just cant remember
unless I'm asleep
i wake up sweating
scared to death
i wake up screaming
and i don't know why
it's as if I've lost some part of myself
this child like image of me
that's locked itself
so deep inside
and thrown away the key
something happened long ago
i can't remember
i just don't know
but it scared me so much
i locked the memory away
and it haunts me now
while I'm asleep
its the reason part of me is missing
its the reason I'm not complete
so you think you know
but trust me you don't
because there's a part of me
i don't know myself
you don't know my demons
and you don't know me
i walk alone in a twisted world
cus no one else is here
my dreams are visions of the past
that have all but disappeared
my voice has grown so weak
that i can barely even speak
and the past haunts me while i sleep
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