So I put up with her shit for alittle longer, because we really didn't see each other much. So, Super Bowl weekend, she went out of to visit a friend and I spent the weekend hanging out with Joy and Bryan. And realizing, how bad the relationship was. Because before, I never sat down and thought about the relationship, I just let it happen and didn't think about it. But this weekend I did and realized I didn't ever say to her I love you because I didn't love her.
She loved me or so she said. But I realized we wanted two different things with this relationship. She wanted something serious and I wanted to just have fun. I decided, it would have to end, no matter, how much it hurt her.
Well, Monday rolls around and Joy tells me that Caryn was crying over me. Bryan had talked to her and said everything I said that weekend and it hurt her. But I was kinda immuned to it all. It didn't really bother me and I didn't much care much.
She wants to see me Tuesday after school, but I tell her that I have to get my hair cut and I do. So she says call her, when I get home and I said I would. So I call tell her I'm eating and going to take a shower and we can see eachother at youth group, but she doesn't show up for youth group. She doesn't end up showing up until after youth group and agrees to take Wayne and me home,so that, we could all hang out at Joys.
Well, while we're at Joys, Bryan calls and we talk. He likes don't do it and I was like what don't listen to my heart and we laughed. We took Wayne home and then went to take me home, we stopped in the driveway and you could feel the tension. It was so silent, not a word was heard, we didn't talk until we parked and I told I wanted to break up and she was like no. And wanted to stay together and try just giving us both space by only seeing eachother on certain days because that was what Joy and Bryan did because of his work schedule, they had certain days that we're just theirs and I was like what the fuck ever. I just wanted to get away from her and in my head we were brocken up. Even though we just took a coulple logs off the fire.
Well, the next night was suppose to be our first scheduled day together, but, when she called me I was asleep. So, she went out with Bryan for coffee. And they talked and she realised some shit.
To be Continued.........
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