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[sid] => 97669
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => my mummy's dieing of cancer.
[time] => 2005-06-11 16:29:54
[hometext] => i'm broken, totally 100% broken! ... cuz i much as i hate me mum. i still love her... *sob*
[bodytext] => you're gonna leave us, and we're gonna die... but... you're gonna leave me. and i'm STILL gonna cry. you take things out on me. and YOU break my head. but if i had a small choice, i'd rather you would live. mummy you gave me this life. and i hate you for it. but mummy, remember when you took away my knife, to prevent me from ending it? do you remember how you abused me mummy, and then cried when i cut my wrists? do you remember when to hit my mummy, when i was just a kid? do you remember how you hated me mummy, for admitting that Richard rapped me? do you remember when you neglected me mummy, but said that you didn't HATE ME. do you remember shouting a me, for calling 'Richard' a freak? ... and do you remember when you lost it with me, and kicked me out on to the streets? do you remember denying that, now that i'm in hospital, with over-dose? do you know how much you're killing-me-mummy, now i've found out, you're-just-gonna-go... i can't tell you how much you're killing me! i can't even look you in the face. I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! ... but you doin't want to spend your LAST moments with me... You've made your feelings clear. ... and all i feel now is tears... 'coz as much as i hate you, I-NEED-YOU-TO-BE-HERE! 'COZ MUMMY I LOVE YOU, BUT YOU'RE LEAVING ME. ... and they pick on me at school, and i need you to HUG-ME! BUT YOU CAN'T! WHY??????????????????????????????????????????? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *TEARS* *sob* *SUICIDE*... that-is-the-only-way, i-can-be-with-you! [comments] => 1 [counter] => 183 [topic] => 32 [informant] => deathdrop [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => SadPoetry )
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