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[aid] => mick
[title] => Shana's Misery
[time] => 2005-05-23 13:14:48
[hometext] => I suffer from Multiple Personality Disorder... I am Amber... I am Shana... we are the same, and we are different. This is her memory...
[bodytext] => Fires of my burning past Returning now, finally, at last A past that I forgot to tell A living soul who wished me well Silence consumes in darker hours Standing above a row of flowers And below the beauty lies the dead My, dog, my soul, my eternal dread And while I mourn in hopeless prayer I look up, hoping to see you there. At last, I know that you are not You are a memory that I forgot And as misery falls upon me like rain All I feel is insufferable pain The darkness of the clouds surround And all there is is darkness abound. A forgotten memory, a separate self Has surfaced at last, to ruin my health, My life, my love, and my sanity’s sorrow Bleakly hoping for a better tomorrow. When will she surface, when will she rise? When will I become my own demise? What will happen? Who will I harm? Will I hurt my friends, or slash my arm? How can I know who I really am I can’t, but I learn what I can. For she is there just under the surface Making me feel ever so worthless. Try as I might to calm her down My forced smile always becomes a frown And while this nightmare I cannot see. I know it is her, Shana’s Misery. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 179 [topic] => 59 [informant] => nanonan [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 4 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 0 [associated] => [topicname] => psychoticpoems )
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