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Point of No Return
Contributed by
Jaycee
on
Wednesday, 20th April 2005 @ 11:37:13 AM in AEST
Topic:
EmotionalPoetry
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Parked on the ledge
overlooking I-95
Knowing that eighty foot drop
will end my being alive
Wasn't always this way
Was happy as a lark
when I was young
Even 'fraid of the dark
Moved into my teen years
saw so many on drugs
That was no answer
I preferred many hugs
High school was bearable
Applied myself to my studies
Not the most popular
Had one or two buddies
This about adulthood:
worse than adolescence
I became invisible
No palpable presence
The workplace was complex
There were so many rules
I didn't fit in
With the circus of fools
But I was so different
I felt like a guest
In a sea of humanity
I was scorned by the rest
Practiced with swords I did
and the occasional knife
It was a poor substitute
This semblance of life
But then I did meet her
she was such a godsend
Smart, kind and so pretty
One problem: Boyfriend
Stop me it did not
I wanted her so much
Would have done anything
For soft caress or touch
Failed miserably I did
For two months I cried
That was the first time
that part of me died
Six months later
the leaves they did fall
Inspired by their deaths
I thought of ending it all
Lived near a transformer
electricity's unforgiving
It'd be the perfect way
for me to stop living
They say it takes courage
to live, not to die
But to this day
I think it's a lie
I met this woman
who'd soon be my wife
Finally happy
With my crazy life
When the honeymoon ended
my swords disappeared
Was I losing my freedom
It was this that I feared
Then came my son
who was born autistic
My wife was abusive
She could go so ballistic
Eight years it's all over
the marriage is done
Looking back at it all
What was missing was fun
No one would date me
I was so obviously old
In the hight heat of summer
my heart had grown cold
Work had gone brutal
I quickly burned out
There'd never been a life
before; there was no doubt
Years had gone by
since life had been fun
From my numb life
I needed to run
Life changed me too much
that I finally did learn
Stepping away from the ledge
To my old life, I could never return
Copyright ©
Jaycee
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Re: Point of No Return
(User Rating: 1 ) by shelby on
Wednesday, 20th April 2005 @ 01:53:50 PM AEST (User
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heart on your sleeve wtih this one Its heartbreaking and powerful at same time you have come through alot in life
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Re: Point of No Return
(User Rating: 1 ) by blue_angel on
Wednesday, 20th April 2005 @ 08:27:52 PM AEST (User
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wow... i think one of your best. its a very honest write and i respect that... honesty. sometimes our mistakes are hard to accept but u come clean with such emotion... im impressed... as i am after reading any of your poems. great job!
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Re: Point of No Return
(User Rating: 1 ) by Former_Member on
Thursday, 21st April 2005 @ 12:38:41 AM AEST (User
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JAYCEE!!!!! This is amazing!! What a beautiful, well written apoem . You really did some soul searching on this . Very honest and touching. I feel you and can relate
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Re: Point of No Return
(User Rating: 1 ) by Jenni_K on
Friday, 13th May 2005 @ 12:34:34 AM AEST (User
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Heart breaking!!
We can never return to our old lives..but we can always start anew.....
Hugs
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