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[aid] => mick
[title] => Acquired Nemesis
[time] => 2005-03-29 22:54:31
[hometext] => this is a very personal poem...
[bodytext] => I have these things, That trouble me. They won't go away, No matter how much I plea. A list of disorders, I consume in my life. Some give me pain, Others give me strife. Schizophrenia and Bipolar, Manic and Psychotic Depression. My Isolectic disease, Kills my expression. Social Phobia, OCD, Both disorders of anxiety. Some I was born with, Some acquired from society. Oppisitional Defiant Disorder, And Cannabis Dependence. With all these meds I'm taking, I still have no independence. I take Seroquel and Risperdal, Both antipsychotic medication. All these chemicals in my head. Such a large combination. Amitryiptyline, Wellbiutrin XL. Two antidepressants I take, That puts me in a spell. Trileptal is for Bipolar, 900 milligrams of it a day. I took three other meds, But they took all those away. I've been in three institutes, I spent in all of them in total of three years. Ever since I left Ridgview, I couldn't shed a tear. I've done jail time for my crimes, I've laughed at every one. I've been beat, raped, and shot at. I've seen friends get shot by guns. My first four friends I've ever had, In front of me they died. I was only 11 years old, What was I to feel inside? The last and only person I loved, Ended her life in my arms. I didn't try to stop her, I just watched as she was harmed. I do drugs all the time, To hide these memories behind. For just a temporary moment, It clears all thoughts in my mind. I killed myself before, 27 minutes I was dead. I over dosed on ectasy, What was going through my head? I'm failing in school, I am failing me. Because every time I make a wish, My life ends up to bleed. --Evan L.-- more of my poetry at: http://thepoemsofsorrow.com [comments] => 1 [counter] => 186 [topic] => 48 [informant] => thepos [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 10 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
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