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[title] => Another Wave of Depression
[time] => 2005-03-26 22:14:05
[hometext] => It's been a year or so since I've written. Some of you are familar with my poetry already. I dont think you'll be disappointed.
[bodytext] => Another wave of depression and suicidal thoughts
Ran into the ground and wandering lost
Confused on what I want and the purpose of life
As I’m taken in again by my savor, my knife
A couple of cuts and release of this pain
It’s my conclusion that life’s a game
Empty inside, though no one can tell
As I hide from them my world of hell
I keep a shield so no one can get in
And expose to the world my darkest sin
I put on a face to hide my tears
But continue living in agonized fear
Everyone says I’m so smart, that I’m great
If that were true, why can’t I escape this place
A brighter life did once come
But now it’s gone, that chapter is done
So I go back to writing and the depression I’ve felt
And continue to put razors upon the bloody shelf
And come to the conclusion that this is my fate
So I cut a little deeper, dying, and slowly I wait.
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Another Wave of Depression
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cuttersangel
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Saturday, 26th March 2005 @ 10:14:05 PM in AEST
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Another wave of depression and suicidal thoughts
Ran into the ground and wandering lost
Confused on what I want and the purpose of life
As I’m taken in again by my savor, my knife
A couple of cuts and release of this pain
It’s my conclusion that life’s a game
Empty inside, though no one can tell
As I hide from them my world of hell
I keep a shield so no one can get in
And expose to the world my darkest sin
I put on a face to hide my tears
But continue living in agonized fear
Everyone says I’m so smart, that I’m great
If that were true, why can’t I escape this place
A brighter life did once come
But now it’s gone, that chapter is done
So I go back to writing and the depression I’ve felt
And continue to put razors upon the bloody shelf
And come to the conclusion that this is my fate
So I cut a little deeper, dying, and slowly I wait.
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by PeaceLovHppnes on
Saturday, 26th March 2005 @ 10:25:32 PM AEST
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This write was very intense and I felt worried for you. Cuttin yourself solves nothing except causing you more pain. I mean not to tell u what to do with your life but try to smile and realize that every problem you face will soon fade away into yesterday. Your life is precious...and i bet you are an amazing person..Once u realize that your day will soon get brighter.
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by kidpoet_213 on
Saturday, 26th March 2005 @ 11:09:15 PM AEST
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This is very intense... indeed. It sends up RED flags in my mind!!! I've been there and done that... not the cutting part... but been depressed and suicidal. It's no picinic either!! Live is worth living... whether u think it is or not! A very good write nonetheless. Thanks for sharing!
~Donna~
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by smiley_jennyxoxo on
Saturday, 26th March 2005 @ 11:51:49 PM AEST
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| I can feel your pain in this poem... it's wonderful, i'm so glad you posted that. One thing that causes depression to set in is to hold all your feelings inside of you and to not tell anyone, that basically causes you to die from the inside out. I've felt that pain before (except for the cutting part, i've never tried cutting). Remember all your loved ones if you consider suicide, and if they'll listen, you'd better talk to them, they'd want you to feel better. I'm also a good listener if you wanna chat, i can give good advice. Continue writing, I'm sure there's someone in your life who cares about you. If not, i wanna try and be that person. PM me sometime if you wanna learn more about me |
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by emystar on
Sunday, 27th March 2005 @ 07:07:41 AM AEST
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I did cut my writst once and but for the grace of God this could be me. Also I take meds for depression. it makes a great big difference in my own life and those that I luv. It took years for the Dr. to find the right meds for me but once a dr. got smart and found the right pill after taking the first one I woke the next day in a brand new world. Mine is a gentic thing.
I really didn't realize that cutting was a thing that maney people do and that's why I say but for the grace of God. My depression went very deep and at the age of 50 flash backs came and there lay my major reason for being depressed. After another bad marraige-n-divorce I realized I had to luv myself to be happy. That's been over 26 years since I cut my wrist and over six years since my last divorce and relationship. See happiness for me comes from acepting God's luv-n-0forgiveness and for giving myself from my own turmoultous past. For me i realized that I was on a cycle of abusing myself by letting men abuse me. I didn't think I deserved happines but it had nothing to do with with me it was being molested from such a young and tender age. As children we block out the bad parts for our own inner peace.
I'm not saying that your un happiness and depression comes from being abused as a child . what I am saying is that u must take one day at a time and face your inner demons.
God is the giver and taker of life and u will not die untill it's your time.
Please don't torture yourself this way. god luvs us all the same and he wants u to live a long peacefull life.
Please take care of yourself and keep writing as u have a whole global family here that luvs u and are concerned for your well being.
luv, huggs, firh, hope, joy, peace,
emy |
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by mylady on
Sunday, 27th March 2005 @ 08:53:20 AM AEST
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I know what you are going threw am a mother
of 4 living inagoined lonely life. tell you some
thing every day i ask God to give me good day.
and to make good deeds in life to better my self i can see you are smart and strong to fight
your demon and throw that razor let you family love you ....I was gang rape . many time i wanted to die
so my friend ask god when you cry to give you a hug and a prayer will help i said a prayer
for you. Sorry my writing is very bad hope you would understand what i also go threw every day. |
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by pixie on
Sunday, 27th March 2005 @ 09:55:16 AM AEST
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a pained and emotional write,
pix xx |
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by Toby on
Monday, 28th March 2005 @ 01:25:54 PM AEST
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| wow dude that was seriously intense.its like you cant stop reading and that is when you know its good!I am sry though that you have so much pain inside it really sucks to feel that way and im not saying it out of pity it just that i know what your going through. |
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by bobotheclown on
Tuesday, 5th April 2005 @ 12:24:36 AM AEST
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A deep and tormented write Cilla. It was
good to read your poetry again, but I know
these feelings all to well and I hope that
depression has not visited you again. I can
relate to this but I remain confident that you
will find your purpose and shake off the
shackles of depression. Keep up the writing
girl.
Bobo (Joel) |
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Re: Another Wave of Depression
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by 143 on
Sunday, 20th January 2008 @ 01:42:55 PM AEST
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Very,Very good! ...Boy do I understand them thoughts...Been There many times myself!
Very Good Poem! |
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