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[title] => Memories of a Suicidal Sophomore
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[hometext] => This is a poem i wrote in honor of all young kids taken by suicide
[bodytext] => Memories of A Suicidal Sophomore
Pain- why me? I wish it could just go away. Why must my life be so full of hate and pain?
Tears- they fall from my eyes every day. Sometimes hours on end. Tears of sadness, never tears of joy. These tears hurt, they are tears of rejection and loneliness. They burn themselves into my skin, my heart and mind.
Thoughts- Sad, lonely ones- ones only depressed people think- thoughts of what the world would be without me, if my family and friends would even notice I’m gone. I cry myself to sleep some nights, other days I cry until my “river” is dry. Why most it be me, why do I feel this way, 16 year olds don’t think of suicide. Each day I say “Today is it” but I never do it. There’s a person in my mind, a friend, named Janice, who is always there, a call away, an e mail. She listens. She holds me and cries with me, tells me not to worry, everything will be ok. Janice is my rock, my hope, my strength, my life. Without her, I’d be gone. I have attempted with the knife once before, but shed no blood, left no mark. The reason? Once again, Janice stopped me. I haven’t attempted since then and am getting emotionally better. I am a suicide survivor thanks to God, and Janice.
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Memories of a Suicidal Sophomore
Contributed by
Mandy2007
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Friday, 28th January 2005 @ 01:34:20 PM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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Memories of A Suicidal Sophomore
Pain- why me? I wish it could just go away. Why must my life be so full of hate and pain?
Tears- they fall from my eyes every day. Sometimes hours on end. Tears of sadness, never tears of joy. These tears hurt, they are tears of rejection and loneliness. They burn themselves into my skin, my heart and mind.
Thoughts- Sad, lonely ones- ones only depressed people think- thoughts of what the world would be without me, if my family and friends would even notice I’m gone. I cry myself to sleep some nights, other days I cry until my “river” is dry. Why most it be me, why do I feel this way, 16 year olds don’t think of suicide. Each day I say “Today is it” but I never do it. There’s a person in my mind, a friend, named Janice, who is always there, a call away, an e mail. She listens. She holds me and cries with me, tells me not to worry, everything will be ok. Janice is my rock, my hope, my strength, my life. Without her, I’d be gone. I have attempted with the knife once before, but shed no blood, left no mark. The reason? Once again, Janice stopped me. I haven’t attempted since then and am getting emotionally better. I am a suicide survivor thanks to God, and Janice.
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Re: Memories of a Suicidal Sophomore
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by zaknafein8891 on
Friday, 28th January 2005 @ 01:42:27 PM AEST
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Wow... that hit home hard.
great work, I loved it.
I'm a survivor too.
perhaps you should check out some of my poetry sometime. I am still working on typing them up at the moment though... |
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Re: Memories of a Suicidal Sophomore
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by jillian_phan on
Friday, 28th January 2005 @ 02:08:11 PM AEST
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| same as the first comment, hey, emotionally stable, for me not yet. i think more of how the people who actually do care about me would miss me, so i prefer to not be selfish and continue for some specific reason........ maybe to be happy again, with myself, and most of all to be there for those who actually do care. ... . read some of my poems too, i also need to take them from ink and paper and type them on the computer.... |
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Re: Memories of a Suicidal Sophomore
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by afterdark on
Friday, 28th January 2005 @ 02:08:56 PM AEST
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| To be honest I am very crass and very much someone who feels if your gonna off yourself then so be it..And let the surplus population serve better..I have no pity to give or to show..Life is hard but taking the easy way out is far to easy..Why give ppl the pleasure of you killing yourself.. |
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Re: Memories of a Suicidal Sophomore
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by wolfman on
Friday, 28th January 2005 @ 03:27:52 PM AEST
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first of all welcome to our family here at YPDC you are always welcome and if you need help we're here for you.
memories do hurt us. they never leave us. and they do become a part of us. you live with hate because of the pain and the hate causes the pain too just know that there are better things out there to look forword to. you have been through much in your young life that is why you want to end it. I know because I have been there it is hard to deal with so much while so young it burdens the soul and causes thouhgtrs that are not yours to torment you. but I can see that you did get through that much. congratulations. and good luck , I wish I could say that you have made, it but sadly there will be harder times, but just remember that there is some one there for you, and here too.
I did like this poem it was well structured and filld with emotion, it caused me to look back on my life and remember what it was like to be there, it made my heart sad to and sad that there are others that are suffering through the same stuff I did, but it made me happy that you were able to get through it with the help of your friend, Janice, take strength in her she cares about you. be stroung and God bless. (hope to read you again.)
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Re: Memories of a Suicidal Sophomore
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by Spazzo on
Thursday, 10th February 2005 @ 10:51:58 PM AEST
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I can relate to this. I am a suicide survivor too. This is really heart touching and sad, it brings back thoughts and makes me think of people who are going through the spirit of suicide. I am so glad that you made it through, and I hope you never feel that way too. Cos it is absolutely scary and horrible. If you ever need to anyone to talk to you can private message me.
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Re: Memories of a Suicidal Sophomore
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by kisser89 on
Friday, 11th February 2005 @ 08:45:34 PM AEST
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| omg thats soo real to me cuz i know exactly what its like to feel all those emotions. You described all the feelings almost perfectly. I luved it. |
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