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[aid] => mick
[title] => ‘Expressions of my soul’
[time] => 2005-01-17 20:37:28
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[bodytext] => What is my purpose? Where do I go from here? I think everyday of finding my way.. Friendships I have, but true friends I don’t One, maybe two real ones at most. My relationship with my father shattered by mistakes he made The disappointment, hurt and anger made my trust in him fade We were once so close but was it all a lie? I don’t know what’s real from what wasn’t.. Just thinking of it makes me cry. School I left behind, I wasn’t sure what I wanted when I started I did it more because it was something to do, rather than something I wanted to do I found things I loved, but it wasn’t the right time I couldn’t focus, it got too hard, I felt I needed to stop.. and I did. My life in karate has had its ups and downs There were times I felt like in a circle I was going around, I remember doing it in the years passed because of my want to be like my father So many things have happened, and it’s gotten much harder. From deception to love to disappointments to lies.. Everything I’ve recently been through has made me cry But after every storm there’s a magical rainbow.. And I know I’ll see mine soon, the Lord told me so. Everything was almost perfect growing up in my life.. I never thought the day would come that I’d fear being a wife, My dreams have been altered by a brutal blow of reality.. I now see things more for what they really are than for what I’d like them to be. The only comfort I had, I had to give her away.. God alone knows, I think about her everyday I miss my little angel.. I miss everything about her Her barks, her hyper-ness, even her cute little begging face.. From the mistakes even I myself have made.. I’ve learned some crucial lessons My faith in the Lord has only gotten stronger I’ll eternally be grateful for all his blessings. My mother, my angel.. I say thanks for her everyday I’ve always dreamt of us being as close as we are Looking back at what we once were and how far we’ve come.. I know that our journey has only just begun. I dream of the day that someone will truly understand me And of the day that I’ll feel whole, But I know that only the Lord can see and know.. The true expressions of my soul. January 9th, 2005 Marisa Sydney [comments] => 2 [counter] => 162 [topic] => 48 [informant] => Marisa_A_Sydney [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
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