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[aid] => mick
[title] => Imaginary House
[time] => 2004-12-19 13:23:01
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[bodytext] => I’ve given up before, I hate it more this time – Though I’m doing it again and I’m blending in, so you won’t even know me apart from someone who has never felt your heart That one last call that I made, I felt completely invasive and You mentioned nothing except for what I asked about You had nothing you wanted to talk to me about I always felt like to live I had to give my life away And I’ve been holding all this doubt and insecurity and I’ve been stuck inside this imaginary house to which you hold the key And I’ve been trying to get out and that might be the end of me I’m giving up and I hate to face the world alone Because I’ve failed to capture you and bring you home You once told me the way and I’ve been trying to get there I realize I’m late, but I know you still care And I can’t serve a life sentence with no happy ending I’ve been crazy but I wasn’t pretending The beauty of fate is that it makes life not fair It won’t even matter if I ever get there The place will be empty where you used to be The door is locked and I don’t have the key And even though I have no way of knowing where to go I’m doing it again and blending in so I don’t have to be afraid of those choices that I made I always needed you to be my escape I’ve been a hostage inside my own mind I’ve left so many people behind Self struggling and now living in this mess I’ve made I’d still give anything for you to be my escape But I can’t expect you to give what you already gave All the doubt and insecurity and even the imaginary house I made Where I was stuck inside thinking you held the key Near to your heart, protecting me I was dying while you were watching me and though it’s sad, it’s reality I fought for you so long This whole year, and beyond It was for nothing, but it wasn’t wrong I could have had you but I tried to save my own skin And now that’s exactly what you’re doing [comments] => 2 [counter] => 168 [topic] => 48 [informant] => Red_October [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
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