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[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => green and gray clouds
[time] => 2004-11-23 23:44:33
[hometext] => Just ramblings of my insanely overactive imagination
[bodytext] => As the drowsy blood drags through my viens I think im dying, or maybe just going insane my nights are captivated by the thought of death my mind wants to know , when is my final breath? But this paranoia is unsatisfied The threads of my life are tightly tied Strangely I dwell on the things I don’t know Will it be swift and painless, violent and slow? Like a disease for which there is no cure Its creeping and brooding and coming for sure! Its sneaking behind me and round the bend I beg and plead but still it is not content I scream and fall and run the other way My feet are sluggish but what can I say? Im running from something I cannot even see Perhaps ive gone crazy, perhaps ill never be free Im still alive for now, but can I live in this childish fear? Each day awakens the terror, each week, each month, even year! This isn’t working, no it isnt at all! I cant live with this obstacle of terror, this wall But what can I do? Im helpless in this matter I feel as mad as that strange little hatter! Watching the clock, afraid of everyday things Afraid to pick up the phone when it rings God save me please, I cant take it much longer Perhaps if I were brave, perhaps If I were stronger But no, I am weak and frightened oh so easily If only I could eradicate the problem, but the problem is ME! Death will find me, I know it will So I sit huddled next to my boarded windowsill And here I shall stay, safe in my home Here I will be, safe and alone Here in the dark and cold, all alone….. [comments] => 2 [counter] => 153 [topic] => 43 [informant] => darkplaidbabe [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 15 [ratings] => 3 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => oops )
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