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[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => A SUICIDE NOTE
[time] => 2004-10-15 06:38:11
[hometext] => a goodbye to whom it may concern...
[bodytext] => I am going to blow my head off
or I am going to slit my wrists
till all the blood flows out
I am going to make a noose
put my head through
and tighten it
to watch my life go by
in front of my eyes
tears will form
thinking of all that I love
but the way my life goes
I cannot stay anymore
so I am now saying goodbye
and thirteen pages later
I shall die
I don't know how it will go
as worthless as I am
I'll probably **** it up
but I just want to die
I find myself crying
wishing daddy would come back
to save me
but he'll never be coming back
to love me
wishing mommy wasn't so ignorant
and gave a **** once in a while
but its too late to love me now
they don't even know me
I grew up accustumed to bruises
and no love at all
when I walk down the street
I don't wanna come back here to this place
because drugs and pain is all I have ever known here
I walk alone in the remains of my life
never remembering happiness or love
just the molesting and the rapes
and everything above
or the razorblades sinking deep into my skin
and the scars from within
but the contents of my life don't matter anymore
as now I'm going to commit suicide
in thirteen pages or less
my darkest hour has yet to come
as my tear drops fall and hit this paper
my fear is arising out of the darkness
but its not going to stop me
nothing will
no love
or the face of a lie
because right now
I'm ready to die
no more abuse or violence in my life
no more abandonment and hurt
no more me
I'll sign my name
and seal it tight
for this will be
the last thing I write
and then I'll be done with this pain
because it's the only way out of this hell
because nobody cares
that I've already been dead for so long
a goodbye to this world is long past due
and now I'm saying goodbye to you
[comments] => 13
[counter] => 304
[topic] => 36
[informant] => screwup
[notes] =>
[ihome] => 0
[alanguage] => english
[acomm] => 0
[haspoll] => 0
[pollID] => 0
[score] => 19
[ratings] => 4
[editpoem] => 1
[associated] =>
[topicname] => Suicide
)
A SUICIDE NOTE
Contributed by
screwup
on
Friday, 15th October 2004 @ 06:38:11 AM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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I am going to blow my head off
or I am going to slit my wrists
till all the blood flows out
I am going to make a noose
put my head through
and tighten it
to watch my life go by
in front of my eyes
tears will form
thinking of all that I love
but the way my life goes
I cannot stay anymore
so I am now saying goodbye
and thirteen pages later
I shall die
I don't know how it will go
as worthless as I am
I'll probably **** it up
but I just want to die
I find myself crying
wishing daddy would come back
to save me
but he'll never be coming back
to love me
wishing mommy wasn't so ignorant
and gave a **** once in a while
but its too late to love me now
they don't even know me
I grew up accustumed to bruises
and no love at all
when I walk down the street
I don't wanna come back here to this place
because drugs and pain is all I have ever known here
I walk alone in the remains of my life
never remembering happiness or love
just the molesting and the rapes
and everything above
or the razorblades sinking deep into my skin
and the scars from within
but the contents of my life don't matter anymore
as now I'm going to commit suicide
in thirteen pages or less
my darkest hour has yet to come
as my tear drops fall and hit this paper
my fear is arising out of the darkness
but its not going to stop me
nothing will
no love
or the face of a lie
because right now
I'm ready to die
no more abuse or violence in my life
no more abandonment and hurt
no more me
I'll sign my name
and seal it tight
for this will be
the last thing I write
and then I'll be done with this pain
because it's the only way out of this hell
because nobody cares
that I've already been dead for so long
a goodbye to this world is long past due
and now I'm saying goodbye to you
Copyright ©
screwup
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2004-10-15 06:38:11]
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by inoc on
Friday, 15th October 2004 @ 06:48:07 AM AEST
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reading this poem I am sorry....
[words are hard to find]....
your pain, hurt and sorrow shine through this write...
just keep writing and release your inner hurts...just keep your chin up....
take care...
cheers!~.
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by Spazzo on
Friday, 15th October 2004 @ 07:12:11 AM AEST
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I can relate. I have felt this way for the longest time. I have tried to commit suicide I have cut done drugs, everything. It's the wrong choice, people care, you just don't realize it. Try and tell someone what you are going through.
Spazzo |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by humboldthunny17 on
Friday, 15th October 2004 @ 07:31:17 AM AEST
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I feel so bad for you! I wish there was a way I could help you, but all you gotta do is stay standing.
This is really deep, and really sad.
I'm sorry |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by pixie on
Friday, 15th October 2004 @ 10:07:41 AM AEST
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very tragic write, I am so sorry you still feel so depressed and like life is not worth living, keep writing and giving an outlet to your feelings,
pixie xx |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by m3 on
Friday, 15th October 2004 @ 01:03:39 PM AEST
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Pain... I feel pain. I sense stupidity...from your parents. Stupidity for trating you like that. For not caring enough.
I guess that's what is great about these places. YOu find people that care enough to leave a thought, a thought that won't get left if you were to die... |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by MoonlitMyst on
Friday, 15th October 2004 @ 01:55:30 PM AEST
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| Don't say nobody cares. I care. Please PM me or email me, if you need to talk. Please? :( |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by kidpoet_213 on
Friday, 15th October 2004 @ 03:44:31 PM AEST
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Hey babe...
(Don't Let This Be) Our Last Goodbye was kind of an answer to this... I think... to hear u read it over the phone... I could comprehend it somewhat... but to read it on the site... it really sinks in...
I'm glad to know that I really have helped u... I truly know that my life has some worth while meaning to it... I'm glad to know that I can be here for u... even though we're miles apart...
Ur welcome... love... for everything... take care...
Remember: To win means life... To lose means u die... To win means those who have tormented you lose... To lose means u've given up... given in and made them winners... already... my friend...
Don't give up! Don't give in! Don't give them the satisfaction of a win!
I love u... babe... always remeber that too!
~Donna~
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by cuddlytiger17 on
Sunday, 17th October 2004 @ 04:52:10 PM AEST
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| Just so you know, I'm one of many on this site whom you can relate to. If you ever need to talk, I'll try my damnest to help. Donna is right tho, to give up is to let them win. Thats whats keeping me going, because I refuse to let my father win. Thats what he wants, and you cant give anyone the satisfaction of knowing that they brought you down to their level and destroyed you. |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by Kindredblood_dragon on
Monday, 18th October 2004 @ 08:27:38 AM AEST
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So much grief and tortured agony, such a sad poem, written with deep feeling and hardened emotions, oh and by the way, your id might say screwup, but to me you are no screw up, its your bloody family that are the screw ups.........not you, ever need a shoulder well Im here, well in a computer sense.
Take care always.
A fan and a friend
Karl |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by deathdrop on
Thursday, 21st October 2004 @ 02:49:01 PM AEST
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no, no, no!
DON'T YOU DARE!
I CARE, YOU KNOW I DO! |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by EVERxSOxSWEET on
Monday, 1st November 2004 @ 09:16:37 PM AEST
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"that I've already been dead for so long
a goodbye to this world is long past due
and now I'm saying goodbye to you"
i like that part..thats a really emotional write..really well written, i could feel your pain... |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by babygurl33 on
Saturday, 20th November 2004 @ 04:21:35 PM AEST
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wow this is a very deep poem and a lot of tymes I feel the same way....ur a very good poet....
xxDestinyxx |
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Re: A SUICIDE NOTE
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by Naughtygurl on
Monday, 27th December 2004 @ 06:24:35 PM AEST
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| I'm sorry, I really find it hard to comment on this poem because that is how everyone who I know basicly feel, and sum have actually tried.... my friend denise is adopted and is beaten by her mother but she is still my friend and i love her for dat , being a true friend you know.... and a while ago she almost did do that....hurt /harm herself..... but Somehow , somehow she finally relized i cared and leanna cared, and even though her family wasn't there and the family she has now beats her up emotionaly and phiscly, she knows that that me and my our friend leanna do care, and i know being though sum of that that pain hurts, its just to hard for me to express.... so iono how old this poem is but i think it's sad and if u wanna talk then i wouldnt mind, besides i need sum1 to care bout me to.... i guess what i'm saying is i'm here and i care..... good luck i hope things get better |
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