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[aid] => mick
[title] => Unable to leave THIS MESS!
[time] => 2004-09-27 15:06:43
[hometext] => IT’S SOME VERY PAINFUL TRUTH! I admit that I’m a freak, that I’m twisted, that I’m scrod up etc… and I hate my-self for being it! It’s all my fault and that’s why I abuse my-self… I hate being what I am! JUST COMMENT...!
[bodytext] => Lost words, over come me.
What have I become?
Why am I me?
I abuse my self.
Even when life goes swell.
I abuse my-self.
Even when things go well.
I self-harm my-self,
And I don’t even receive release.
Self-harm used to make me better,
But now I just like to bleed.
Self-harm used to be my comfort,
But now cutting with hate sounds right.
Because maybe I’m good for some things,
But I’m NOT good for winning the fights.
And those words they call me are in deep!
So let’s STUFF these walls around,
Because ‘these walls’ stand for nothing!
Because I STILL can’t get out!
… I hate my-self for being this no one!
And I hate it how I put on a front!
But I couldn’t cope, if they saw the ‘real me’,
Knowing that more words will later come…
… But I can admit to some things they called me,
Because I’m starting to admit defeat.
And for being so sensitive, I HATE MY-SELF!
But those threatening words,
HAVE REALLY DAMAGED ME!
So when the pain gets so far unbearable,
I take the blade back to my flesh,
I hate my-self for hurting so badly,
And for being unable to leave this mess!
[comments] => 8
[counter] => 167
[topic] => 61
[informant] => deathdrop
[notes] =>
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[alanguage] => english
[acomm] => 0
[haspoll] => 0
[pollID] => 0
[score] => 10
[ratings] => 2
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[associated] =>
[topicname] => selfstruggles
)
Unable to leave THIS MESS!
Contributed by
deathdrop
on
Monday, 27th September 2004 @ 03:06:43 PM in AEST
Topic:
selfstruggles
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Lost words, over come me.
What have I become?
Why am I me?
I abuse my self.
Even when life goes swell.
I abuse my-self.
Even when things go well.
I self-harm my-self,
And I don’t even receive release.
Self-harm used to make me better,
But now I just like to bleed.
Self-harm used to be my comfort,
But now cutting with hate sounds right.
Because maybe I’m good for some things,
But I’m NOT good for winning the fights.
And those words they call me are in deep!
So let’s STUFF these walls around,
Because ‘these walls’ stand for nothing!
Because I STILL can’t get out!
… I hate my-self for being this no one!
And I hate it how I put on a front!
But I couldn’t cope, if they saw the ‘real me’,
Knowing that more words will later come…
… But I can admit to some things they called me,
Because I’m starting to admit defeat.
And for being so sensitive, I HATE MY-SELF!
But those threatening words,
HAVE REALLY DAMAGED ME!
So when the pain gets so far unbearable,
I take the blade back to my flesh,
I hate my-self for hurting so badly,
And for being unable to leave this mess!
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deathdrop
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2004-09-27 15:06:43]
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Re: Unable to leave THIS MESS!
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by Alovinmann on
Monday, 27th September 2004 @ 03:08:11 PM AEST
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| understood be well |
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Re: Unable to leave THIS MESS!
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by katyqueen35 on
Monday, 27th September 2004 @ 03:15:27 PM AEST
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| I say you need someone to talk to about this problem you have.I once knew someone that did that and she went overbored in cutting herself up.Now shes gone .PLEASEif you need to talk pm me ok.Oh by the way the is an excellent write.You are a very talented writer.take care |
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Re: Unable to leave THIS MESS!
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by Former_Member on
Monday, 27th September 2004 @ 03:48:54 PM AEST
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| Very deep poem, though excellent nonetheless. However, I understand the point you're trying to make here. I know people who cut themselves as well, and sometimes talking about it can help. It doesn't always work, but it's always worth a try. If you ever feel like talking to someone, PM or e-mail me - I'd be glad to help you out. ^_^ Take care of yourself, and best of luck. |
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Re: Unable to leave THIS MESS!
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by emystar on
Monday, 27th September 2004 @ 04:08:07 PM AEST
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This a very strong, heart wrenching write.
Please get help from your Dr. They can put u on meds that can help u cope.
Take it easy on yourself. No one on this planet wishes to be that way. I don't really understand this why it happens but u can bet u didn't ask to be that way.
Luv, huggs, prayer,
emy |
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Re: Unable to leave THIS MESS!
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by emystar on
Monday, 27th September 2004 @ 04:19:24 PM AEST
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One thing I wanna add, jus because u have a problem that doesn't mean u r a freak. Sounds very much like u don't have any self esteem. Please take it easy and look in your mirror every day and say, "I know I'm somebody 'cause God don't make no junk.
God put u here for a reason so please jus know that God luvs all his children jus the same.
luv, huggs, faith, hope, joy, peace,
emy |
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Re: Unable to leave THIS MESS!
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by monophobic on
Monday, 27th September 2004 @ 07:50:59 PM AEST
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well the truth of the matter is, this reminds me of me. people say, if u don't like something about you, change it, and its nto that easy i know, but with me the thing was i was that way cuz i wanted to be, it was fun being normal, it was more fun to cut myself. so if you think ur screwed up......look at me....im completely worthless...and i know most of the comments are, its okay take to me, and u can of course send me a message, i would love, but i can't help you
however, i think this is a great poem, i like poems that i can easily relate too and this is for sure one of them! |
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Re: Unable to leave THIS MESS!
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by Essentially9 on
Monday, 27th September 2004 @ 11:08:52 PM AEST
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| you have the power to think your own thoughts and control what gets to you... |
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Re: Unable to leave THIS MESS!
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by blackholesun on
Monday, 4th October 2004 @ 12:30:29 PM AEST
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feeling down?no you are not a freak!quit saying that,does that make me a freak?
well i dont think you are but i do think you think you are,i pray for your self esteem rosie,we are friends i care about how you are doing,did you ever quit cutting?i did,thought you would like to know that.
love always Brittany |
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