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[aid] => mick
[title] => Not healing, still slashing…
[time] => 2004-09-11 04:53:49
[hometext] => I’m having some lows again today. Not all the bad, but I’ve written about them and how bad things have gotten recently.
[bodytext] => Holding together, Here I stay. Living inside, A shadow of pain. Closing my eyes, To see the living-dead, Waiting until night time, And then crying on my bed. Slitting my wrist, To release the hurt, Feeling alone, Feeling like dirt. I then wipe more blood-stains, Over my pinkie bed sheets. So that no longer! Can they say I don’t cut and bleed! And they can’t stay in denial, My arms are shredded and raw! I’ve been a cutter, For 2 years and more! I can feel happy, And then suddenly low. I don’t get what’s going on! But the pain grips and goes slow… So I’ll quit! But still it never ends, Because a few months later, It kicks of again. I close up tight, And pretend it isn’t real! Only thing is, it is, And when I cut I can't heal. [comments] => 2 [counter] => 165 [topic] => 61 [informant] => deathdrop [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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