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[aid] => mick
[title] => ONE YEAR AT YPDC
[time] => 2004-07-10 20:46:29
[hometext] => One year ago in July of 2003.........I ventured forth unknown to everyone..... This is the first poem I submitted here at YPDC. Norm was the first to comment, and I knew I'd found a kind and loving home.
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My poems are written about life experiences. When I fell into a deep depression over the
abuse of my husband in 1986, I remembered it, and wrote this poem. I might add...the minute I put him out of my life........I've never suffered one bad depressive day since!
"DEPRESSION"
Imprisoned in depth, dungeon-like,
complicated severe.
No meaning, no purpose.
How do I get from there to here?
One moment is white, the next is blue.
Unpleasant emotions, is all I can view.
Initiative stymied, lost motion, or touch.
"Well-being" secluded, dare not feel,
May feel too much!
Who put me here?
There must be someone to blame?
I can't see their face, nor remember their name?
Standing outside, viewing from within.
Must pull myself together,
But where to begin?
Be calm, stoic, how?
Easy flowing tears,
Deep down no feelings, empty,
vacant vacuum, fears!
Anxious, inner anxieties,
Mental orders, no, disorders,
Counting, sorting, neatly compact.
No concentration, nothing is in tact!
Is this boredom?
Seeking a way to escape?
I'll sleep now, perhaps a nightmare?
'Twil all be gone when I awake.
Going through motions,
I'm a void in time, suspended without thoughts,
Answers, questions, reason, or rhyme.
Lacks control, matters not.
Panic, devastation, desolation,
Pieces unsorted, unseen soul,
Neglected tasks, forgotten role.
Can't reach out, stifled, close, encased!
Unfinished, sloppy, not clean.
No help, hopeless, where to lean?
Depression, unlike grieving,
For grieving means feeling grief,
With depression, feelings are robbed,
Exaggerated moods, no relief!
No understanding, comprehension, see?
I care less, and less!
What kind of person was "Me?"
Did I thrill of excitement?
Flush of embarrassment?
Was my life filled with joy, and happiness?
Was I loved less?
I've been robbed of joy, loss of self-identity,
When will I be released, and set free?
And, when I am, will I be "Me?"
Created by
Cheri Cam LeBren
July 1986
I divorced him.......and have
been very happy ever since!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"One tear drops,
One broken heart!
Not anymore... this
relationship will end!
I learned alot, never again!"
"Smiles Always!"
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[ratings] => 5
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ONE YEAR AT YPDC
Contributed by
lovingcritters
on
Saturday, 10th July 2004 @ 08:46:29 PM in AEST
Topic:
AnniversaryPoems
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My poems are written about life experiences. When I fell into a deep depression over the
abuse of my husband in 1986, I remembered it, and wrote this poem. I might add...the minute I put him out of my life........I've never suffered one bad depressive day since!
"DEPRESSION"
Imprisoned in depth, dungeon-like,
complicated severe.
No meaning, no purpose.
How do I get from there to here?
One moment is white, the next is blue.
Unpleasant emotions, is all I can view.
Initiative stymied, lost motion, or touch.
"Well-being" secluded, dare not feel,
May feel too much!
Who put me here?
There must be someone to blame?
I can't see their face, nor remember their name?
Standing outside, viewing from within.
Must pull myself together,
But where to begin?
Be calm, stoic, how?
Easy flowing tears,
Deep down no feelings, empty,
vacant vacuum, fears!
Anxious, inner anxieties,
Mental orders, no, disorders,
Counting, sorting, neatly compact.
No concentration, nothing is in tact!
Is this boredom?
Seeking a way to escape?
I'll sleep now, perhaps a nightmare?
'Twil all be gone when I awake.
Going through motions,
I'm a void in time, suspended without thoughts,
Answers, questions, reason, or rhyme.
Lacks control, matters not.
Panic, devastation, desolation,
Pieces unsorted, unseen soul,
Neglected tasks, forgotten role.
Can't reach out, stifled, close, encased!
Unfinished, sloppy, not clean.
No help, hopeless, where to lean?
Depression, unlike grieving,
For grieving means feeling grief,
With depression, feelings are robbed,
Exaggerated moods, no relief!
No understanding, comprehension, see?
I care less, and less!
What kind of person was "Me?"
Did I thrill of excitement?
Flush of embarrassment?
Was my life filled with joy, and happiness?
Was I loved less?
I've been robbed of joy, loss of self-identity,
When will I be released, and set free?
And, when I am, will I be "Me?"
Created by
Cheri Cam LeBren
July 1986
I divorced him.......and have
been very happy ever since!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"One tear drops,
One broken heart!
Not anymore... this
relationship will end!
I learned alot, never again!"
"Smiles Always!"
Copyright ©
lovingcritters
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2004-07-10 20:46:29]
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Re: ONE YEAR AT YPDC
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by Gentledove on
Saturday, 10th July 2004 @ 08:56:38 PM AEST
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One year anniversay Yea!!! congratulations. Your poem is wonderfully written.
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by Former_Member on
Saturday, 10th July 2004 @ 09:20:16 PM AEST
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Happy Anniversary, my dear, kind and loving friend. We are so lucky to have you here with us sharing your love and talent.
Big hugs,
Rita |
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by Archie on
Saturday, 10th July 2004 @ 09:25:19 PM AEST
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| This is an awesome poem and it is clear to see any one who abuses does not fully learn to care or love. |
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by Ilhar on
Saturday, 10th July 2004 @ 09:30:47 PM AEST
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happy aniversary....it has been wonderful having you here...and reading your great poetry my friend
Shari |
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Re: ONE YEAR AT YPDC
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by brew on
Saturday, 10th July 2004 @ 09:35:47 PM AEST
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| I have to comment on this one, because from a kids(not now) point of view............I can tell you.,I am so glad you got out. I am young now but , when youger my step-dad was abuseive, and it was worse for my mom. I have sworn, to never to be in that or timeto have what has happened to ya'll!. |
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Re: ONE YEAR AT YPDC
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by Jenni_K on
Saturday, 10th July 2004 @ 10:33:55 PM AEST
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Congratulations...hope you enjoy another year here with us.......
Jenni |
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Re: ONE YEAR AT YPDC
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by mountainhigh on
Sunday, 11th July 2004 @ 03:12:04 AM AEST
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Into the light from the darkest of nights, may you forever be in that light.
Chris |
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by pixie on
Sunday, 11th July 2004 @ 05:44:09 AM AEST
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Congrats on being here for a year *hugs you tightly*
your poem is as always wonderfully written,
takecare
pixie xx |
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Re: ONE YEAR AT YPDC
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by blueheart on
Sunday, 11th July 2004 @ 11:06:50 PM AEST
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Wow, this poem is wonderful. What a way to announce your arrival at YPDC. :)
I myself have been here over a year and its amazing what this site has done for my poetry.
I has lifted my standard up a notch. This is truly an influential and inspirational site.
Happy anniversary to you and I hope you have more to come. |
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Re: ONE YEAR AT YPDC
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by emystar on
Monday, 12th July 2004 @ 11:41:00 PM AEST
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Congradulations on all counts.
Veery sad but written well.
I know the feelings etc.
Mine had to go too.
Great writing, mom.
huggs, luv, smiles,
your brat,
emy
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Re: ONE YEAR AT YPDC
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by Former_Member on
Wednesday, 14th July 2004 @ 06:09:33 AM AEST
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I haven't been here half as long as you, and I recognise the value in its omnipresence for everyone who needs an outlet. For me, it has proved a life-changing experience.
Lovely poem. |
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