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[aid] => mick
[title] => Push
[time] => 2004-06-01 19:55:16
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[bodytext] => "You can only go as far as you push." I've been pushing pretty damn hard, So why am I still getting nowhere? I'm failing in every aspect, And I almost don't care anymore. I wasn't always so pathetic. I don't know where I went wrong. I'm such a miserable waste of human flesh. Everyone and everything is leaving me. I'm going to be alone again. I don't like to be alone. I'm scared. I've disappointed the very few people I love, And I've let them down. I'm so afraid I'm going to lose them. I've pushed myself far beyond my own personal limits. A person can only take so much. These mental self battles have been going on for years. It's a challenge to live life day by day. But I try. And I try damn hard, Every god damn day. But it's not good enough. Nothing I do seems to be good enough for anyone. For that I am sorry. My overwhelming fear of failure eats at me every minute of every day. Soon it will devour me. I feel so helpless and hopeless. "You can only go as far as you push." I guess that doesn't apply to me. MW 2003 [comments] => 1 [counter] => 162 [topic] => 61 [informant] => Tinkkerbelle [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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