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[aid] => mick
[title] => Inadequate Modern Medicine
[time] => 2004-05-17 13:36:30
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[bodytext] => once again i've given in let calm replace anxiety 16 new scars i'll have to show when the healing of skin heals my soul and no one yet knows of the pain that i hide they're content letting me keep it inside but each time i spill it seams a part of me dies. am i too lost to be saved? i've been called couragious for ignoring the lie that the only solution is forfit courage is not me. every time i "die" i need a new wound to bring me back to this pitiful reality. i lived the lie of mania i couldn't sleep couldn't eat couldn't think. but now i rest comfortably knowing i'm sane as long as i have my knife. but i can no longer write. every time this pen touches paper i fear the paper will be seen by the piercing eyes of those in ignorance those who bring ridicule and stupidity and so my inspiration has dissolved. evaporated. as i watched my notebook burn i realized that everyone was wrong. for as long as there are beings walking the earth that could think to destroy such emotion without a backwards glance death will bring an answer. and so i will embrace it. as each wasted heartbeat draws it closer. i'm pleading for it to take me no modern medicine can remedy the broken heart of this broken spirit. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 143 [topic] => 61 [informant] => liquidchaos [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 0 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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