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[title] => God give me a prescription
[time] => 2002-09-14 06:54:27
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[bodytext] => My pill bottles empty.
And the pain hasn't gone away.
The daily dose is three.
But I doubled it more than that today.
I had enough left for two weeks straight.
But now not enough for even one day.
My toes and fingers I no longer feel.
I wonder how long it will take the rest to heal.
My life is sad and my fate is sealed.
And everyone I love has made me go away.
I make a visit with my family daily.
And now they tell me I'm just in the way.
Only if they knew of my illness.
And that I'm not long for this world.
Believe me I try to be happy and joyful.
But today the pain just wouldn't go away.
I really tried to hold my tears and pray them to go away.
But a life like this would drive anyone insane.
My vision is blurry and now I can barely see.
I wonder if I sleep if tomorrow I will wake.
My pill bottle is empty.
It strictly say do not exceed the dosage.
But I'm sorry to say thats five minutes to late.
My daily dose is three.
Tomorrow I'll barely be able to cover two.
And tommorrow I know the feeling will be ten times as great.
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God give me a prescription
Contributed by
cryingonmyporch
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Saturday, 14th September 2002 @ 06:54:27 AM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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My pill bottles empty.
And the pain hasn't gone away.
The daily dose is three.
But I doubled it more than that today.
I had enough left for two weeks straight.
But now not enough for even one day.
My toes and fingers I no longer feel.
I wonder how long it will take the rest to heal.
My life is sad and my fate is sealed.
And everyone I love has made me go away.
I make a visit with my family daily.
And now they tell me I'm just in the way.
Only if they knew of my illness.
And that I'm not long for this world.
Believe me I try to be happy and joyful.
But today the pain just wouldn't go away.
I really tried to hold my tears and pray them to go away.
But a life like this would drive anyone insane.
My vision is blurry and now I can barely see.
I wonder if I sleep if tomorrow I will wake.
My pill bottle is empty.
It strictly say do not exceed the dosage.
But I'm sorry to say thats five minutes to late.
My daily dose is three.
Tomorrow I'll barely be able to cover two.
And tommorrow I know the feeling will be ten times as great.
Copyright ©
cryingonmyporch
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2002-09-14 06:54:27]
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Valerie_Pearson on
Saturday, 14th September 2002 @ 09:10:23 AM AEST
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I hope this is not how you feel, if it is seek help,
we need you in this world, I lost way two many to suicide, |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by TheVoice on
Saturday, 14th September 2002 @ 12:55:00 PM AEST
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Amy,
Please DO NOT give up!! Do not force what is not to be yet. I as your friend am not giving up on you or the possibility of this situation being healed by God above.
Please fight back hard. I know this is tough and you are tired from the battles, we are here to help support you....
The Voice
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Jenni_Kalicharan on
Saturday, 14th September 2002 @ 01:03:57 PM AEST
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Amy, I'm sorry you feel this way still... Please don't give up.. Remember, it's always seem darkest before the dawn...there is that light at the end of the tunnel...with friends there to help you...always remember that..
Hugs,
Jenni |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Former_Member on
Sunday, 15th September 2002 @ 03:11:31 AM AEST
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| A lot of what you say in this poem is like me. Right now I am going through some really hard times. My friends always push me away and say things that hurt me. If you hold on for a while I believe that God will give you someone to help you through all this. I know he has sent a very special person to help me. And don't ever commit suicide. I know what it is like to want to kill yourself. I have wanted to do it before. I have actually tried. It actually doesn't help anything. Just hold on for a while and you will find someone that will help you through. For now just pray and God will help you like he is helping me. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by greeneyes on
Sunday, 15th September 2002 @ 12:04:11 PM AEST
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The sky is getting dark
A storm is on its way
The clouds are moving slow
I ask myself why
My night was restless
Knowing what I read
It’s hard to understand
What I really dread
She’s too weak with pain and needs your help
That’s why I’m asking for God’s help
She is so young
So much to give
Many friends are here
To let her know we care
This is to you a person I don’t know
My heart cries out to you
To know with God’s loving prayer’s
His strength he will give
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by princesspurty on
Monday, 16th September 2002 @ 08:55:30 AM AEST
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| please dont give up, your much too young to give up, seek help and you will see life will get better, but you must never give up, it is not worth the pain on your soul to die like this |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Knowledge on
Sunday, 20th October 2002 @ 12:50:44 AM AEST
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Greeneyes has spoken for me. Thank you Greeneyes.
And Amy...remember this: Although we are not friends with physical form to you, that doesn't mean we can't give nourishment to your soul. I (and I hope I speak for all of us out there) am here for you.
Knowledge |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Tyes on
Thursday, 31st October 2002 @ 08:54:14 PM AEST
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Hello !
If this is how you truly feel, then this is a wake up call !
When I read this, I had to go read your other poems. I see the trend is the same.
Life is a gift, and just as opportunity comes disguised as work, so does life's many blessings. They are the little things that we take for granted.
Such as the number of friends you have online. Such as the terrific gift of poetry that you have. (Your poem is in the Top 30 list !)Don't think everyone can be just as explicit and graphic as you are. You have captured many emotions.
Usually if you have a gift. It's for someone else. So go ahead, bless us all, and you will be blessed.
Finally, something I learnt - disappointments are the results of unmet expectations. Lower your expectations where friends and family are concerned and you will do just fine. Only God can truly satisfy the longing of your heart and soul. No other person can take that place.
Looking forward to more inspiring poetry from you.
All the best. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by crucifixioncross on
Friday, 15th November 2002 @ 06:12:01 AM AEST
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| i know the feeling of wanting to die. im sure almost everyone has felt it at least once. im not going to sit here and say i am glad i didnt because i am still thinking about it daily. what i will say is that you need to find something to keep you happy. for me its writing poetry and songs and whatever i got on my chest at the time and i keep it all in my book which is up to like 40 pages or more now and my goal is to fill the pages of the notebook i have titles the book of death with my art. i really liked the poem though, you kept to the scheme and all and tied it all back together at the end and that was awesome i hope you keep up the good poems and stuff cause we all need a good read to improve ourselves, our poetry, and our overall happiness. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by MnMnMsrcool on
Thursday, 21st November 2002 @ 07:18:11 AM AEST
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| Dont give up it isnt worth giving up on. hold on and u have so many people here that u can talk to. dont give up keep writing |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Olddarkme on
Tuesday, 7th January 2003 @ 07:26:05 PM AEST
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| Interesting. Rambling but interesting. I take medication myself and know the feeling. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Wrybod on
Sunday, 12th January 2003 @ 01:00:54 PM AEST
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Stick it out as long as you can. While there's life there's hope.
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by TundraHydra on
Tuesday, 4th February 2003 @ 11:17:51 PM AEST
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| I'd do the same if I had a prescription, but all I have is a knife. I feel that if ur gonna kill ur sefl then dont make it the easiest choice u ever made. Like I said if I'm gonna commit suicide I want to realize that it is a painful choice. So far I haven't totally commited myself to it cause a part of me still wants to live. That part is in everyone ya just have to find it. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Percursors on
Wednesday, 5th March 2003 @ 09:04:20 PM AEST
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| VERY DEEP, I LOVED IT... |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by tinka_belle on
Friday, 27th June 2003 @ 10:57:40 PM AEST
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plz dont give up
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Former_Member on
Sunday, 20th July 2003 @ 12:26:37 PM AEST
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| This is really deep. I hope things are alright now since it is almost a year later. Listen to the comments of others they are true and are unknown friends which will stick behind you. These are the kind of people who care and want you here. You will always have a place and friends here at ypdc. For always. Poets stick together. We all need each other. Kimmie_mac |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by manson on
Wednesday, 30th July 2003 @ 07:45:15 AM AEST
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| i feel exactly the same way great work |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by hardcoreputa on
Thursday, 31st July 2003 @ 01:53:24 AM AEST
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| a completely touching poem, and i too feel like this many times... many nights i have sat with a knife or empty pill bottle, awaiting the end, i wish that you would fully think about this decision before you act on it, think about it, best wishes ~Apryl |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by SpreadYourWings on
Sunday, 31st August 2003 @ 01:34:01 PM AEST
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| I loved this poem. I once had a time where I would take ibueprofen to take away everything. It never did and sometimes I was afraid that I wouldn't wake up the next day after taking 30 or so. I've since then turned to my friends for guidance and i've been drug free for two months now. Even now, during these hard times that I still go through, its hard not to turn back to them. Beautiful write and may you always carry on. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by cryingonmyporch on
Tuesday, 2nd September 2003 @ 10:43:09 AM AEST
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Hey guys thank you for all the comments, but unfort. the feeling still lingers and I believe it will always and forever! Anywyas Thank you guys!
Much love
Amy |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by TaintedOptomist on
Thursday, 6th November 2003 @ 12:54:38 PM AEST
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| I'm in awe magnificantly written. Dispare may be worth it to produce works of art such as this. I applaude your talent. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Former_Member on
Tuesday, 3rd February 2004 @ 03:37:12 AM AEST
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amy,
the feeling never goes away, it is an endless presuit of unhappiness..but i assure you, there is more to life than what you see. expierence it all and you will believe. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by viki on
Tuesday, 24th February 2004 @ 01:58:16 AM AEST
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| I liked your poem. I have O.D. alot. Last was in Oct. |
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by corrupted_minds on
Wednesday, 7th April 2004 @ 01:53:13 AM AEST
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| talk to someone about the feelings you have, i think that would be the safest thing to do and i think you should after reading the strong emotions you have shown in this poem here. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by corrupted_minds on
Saturday, 29th May 2004 @ 01:39:53 AM AEST
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| good work |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by CeruleanScreams on
Saturday, 29th May 2004 @ 04:50:11 PM AEST
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| this poem shows the hopelessness of life... i can relate to everything you said, and unlike most of the other commentators i can't say to hold on and it will be worth it someday. if you feel the way you write, i think death would be better than life (it would be for me, but i don't have the guts to take the knife or pills). good luck in the fight of life. |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by deadbloodyrose on
Tuesday, 22nd June 2004 @ 07:15:00 PM AEST
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| i think many can relate with this piece..i know i can. youve captured the pain and turned it into art.. you did a really nice job.. AMI JO |
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Re: God give me a prescription
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by Alina on
Monday, 2nd August 2004 @ 04:44:25 PM AEST
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Well, there are comments posted on this poem already, but maybe mine will still mean something. I know exactly how you feel. I know you probably don't believe that, because people have told you that many times, but it is true. Since I was twelve I have attempted suicide, and once, i very near succeeded. I have been an addict to drugs, placed in behavioral hospitals and also in rehab for two years. I know what it's like to be on those "pills". The " HAPPY PILLS" as I call them. The doctors think you'll be fine taking them, and it is hard to find someone that understands. I am only sixteen, but if you ever need someone, just e-mail me:
santeriastone@hotmail.com
Sincerely, ALINA
(((HUGS))) @-->- |
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by dartsofplsre87 on
Thursday, 12th August 2004 @ 04:25:26 AM AEST
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| I used to feel the same way. I got help and you should too, if you still feel this way. Just hope you make it through it. Great poem |
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by skyblumoon on
Thursday, 12th August 2004 @ 11:43:34 AM AEST
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| Execellent poem. I can feel your desperation. |
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by TwEeK on
Wednesday, 25th August 2004 @ 02:29:37 PM AEST
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2nd time i read this.
oh how i feel the same....i allways get in the way of everyone....but there is a way!
there is a door at the end of this horrible hallway of depression and all you have to do is reach and turn the knob opening you to peace and serenity, without resorting to death.
good luck!
tweek |
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by clowns_can_burn on
Thursday, 16th September 2004 @ 10:46:57 AM AEST
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| great write, i know the feeling.cheer up |
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by lovesucks on
Sunday, 3rd October 2004 @ 10:05:30 PM AEST
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Well, you actually helped me by reminding me of the pain I once knew all to well....Read Within us all or Watch me as I fall....they have to do with addiction. Also A Wish For You (Have Faith in all you do). It says in my book, that an addict is one's life which is centered on the getting, using, and finding ways, and means to get more....We live to use & use to live very simply an addict is a man or woman who's life is centered on drugs. That woke me up from that hell I was in it gave me hope for tomorrow because I truely thought I was alone and that nobody could understand the Bottom I had reached and would not believe I didn't want to do but somehow I felt I had to do it despite the person I claimed to be...I don't know I am ramblin' so read those poems in my profile when you get some time. Things do get better find that strength you have pull it from the pit of your stomach,, Stand up Brush off and make the effort in the positives.
Theresa (lovesucks) |
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by Rxqueen on
Sunday, 10th October 2004 @ 09:39:14 AM AEST
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| Isn't that the worst. I have my bottle and I count the pills in it every day maybe once or twice. I take double or triple or whatever I feel like. NOw I am kicking myself for being greedy because I know I will not make it untill my refill date. And then what? I liked your poem. Felt like it was written for me. As messed up as this sounds it makes me feel better knowing I am not alone. |
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