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[title] => From Hell To Heaven, And Back
[time] => 2002-08-21 09:27:00
[hometext] => For a year I was involved with a girl who had a boyfriend. She broke up with him several times for me, but kept going back before giving us a real shot at a relationship. I think she couldn't let go of the memories of what her relationship with him once was, but was no longer. She is my one true love, though I removed myself from he life about a few weeks ago. I just couldn't stand the pain I was going through due to her confused heart anymore. This poem describes an average week in my life for the past year or so. I hope you enjoy it. Still makes me cry every time I read it.
[bodytext] => It’s a cloudy Monday morning
Last night I came back from heaven
Now it’s off to work
Usually around eleven
I pick up my angel
For work, she’s on my way
As she gets in the car, I think
Will it be different today?
Now we’re on our way
Heading towards our work
She looks over and says, “smile”
So I throw her a little smirk
As the day moves on
My mood slowly dies
All that gets me through
Is that look in her eyes
I drop her off at home
And kiss that beautiful face
She leaves and heavens gone
Gone without a trace
Each Monday before she leaves
The same verse she hears from me
“What are you doing tonight?
It’s you I want to see.”
I don’t know why I ask
The answer I already knew
“I don’t know, I’ll call you later.”
She may not know, but I do
So I drive myself home
Trying to keep my thoughts at bay
On my way home I see a sign
It reads: Hell – A Few Hours Away
I get myself home
I toss my shoes at the stair
And sit myself at the computer
Just hoping she’s there
I sign myself online
And it’s her that I see
So I send her a message
“Tonight, will you have time for me?”
“No, Sorry
I’m going out with another.”
“I’ll call when I get home.”
With those words my heart shudders
Because of those words, my plans
For the night have been set
I’ll lay awake by the phone
Waiting for the glimpse of heaven I’ll get
I’m not sure exactly when
But asleep I fell
To awake the next morning
For my second day in hell
Today’s my day off
But I’ll stop in to see
My angel who’s working
She’s where I want to be
Today I’m all right
Though my minds doing laps
Tonight I may see her
For a little while perhaps
And that’s what happened
A visit to heaven again
“Tonight I’ll be with him,
He’s coming at one A.M.”
Snapped back to hell
But I’ve been here before
I want to hide my eyes
And sprint for the door
But I don’t run, I stay
For I love her too true
I love this heaven too much
What else can I do?
Now it’s quarter to one
Time for me to go
A quick hug and kiss goodbye
Before my tears start to flow
So I drive back to hell
It’s starting to feel like home
I sit with pen in hand
And write her another poem
I picture him holding her
Lying in his bed
A thought I don’t want
But can’t erase from my head
I picture him kissing her
Her saying the words I long to hear
I lay alone in my bed
Wishing she was near
When I can’t take anymore
I write her a letter or two
My heart, I send through the computer
But what good does it do?
So many words
Must have typed them all
Maybe they’re not in the right order
Maybe they’re not the right words at all
Alarm goes off again
I have to work at eight
But I’m so damn tired
I was up so damn late
So I stroll into work
Trying to hide my hell in my heart
Please, don’t rub me the wrong way
Today, you don’t want to start
I leave work by twelve
All I want is a nap
But I want to know that she’s home
At my computer I sit, my fingers I tap
Now it’s two P.M.
No sign of her yet
So I drag myself to bed
Still, I won’t sleep, I bet
Wednesdays a tough day
She may or may not call
I’m really not sure
I’m not sure at all
But she does and we talk
But it’s always the same
I hope and I hope
Then I hear his name
Tonight she’ll go with him
They’ll go somewhere and drink
I’ll be here planning my trip
Tomorrow I leave for heaven again, I think
Last night was hard to get through
Though I made it once again
When I see her, we could argue
But why waste now with then?
Thursdays are the strange ones
For we have to start anew
Though it seems nothings changing
Keep trying, is what I do
So Thursday I spend Trying
To leave my hell behind
I’m on my way back to heaven
I hope she’ll let me stay this time
I usually arrive in heaven
Towards the end of Thursday night
And my angel leaves with a kiss
If we managed to avoid a fight
That night I sleep easy
My best sleep all week
For I made it back to heaven
And the feeling that I seek
So Friday we work
We work for most the day
Friday night comes
And I ask her, “Please stay.”
Stay with me forever
Forever in my arms
I promise to protect you
From all of life’s harms
At this point I feel her
Slowly pull away
She doesn’t move an inch
Just no response to say
I just want her to believe
All I say is real
And though she doesn’t say it
I think I see how she feels
So I try to bite my tongue
So I don’t leave heaven behind
What else does she need
To help her make up her mind?
I drop her off at home
With heaven at its peak
A passionate kiss goodnight
My knees feeling so weak
Saturday moves on in
I work hours before she
I count the minutes down
It’s her I want to see
She comes into work
And I’m greeted with a smile
I have this feeling of completeness
If only for awhile
After work, Saturday night
We go drinking with some friends
As soon as it starts
The night always seems to end
But on this night she knows I’m hers
And I feel as if she’s mine
Though a feeling of confusion
Lingers in the back of my mind
I tell her I love her
As I always do
And she answers my question
“Yes, I want to be with you.”
We should be together
But for some reason, it’s not so
Then I realize, one more night
And it’s back to hell I go
Saturday night I sleep
Three hours maybe four
I’ve given all I am
Is she waiting for something more?
Sunday, here and gone so fast
It comes and goes so quick
I drop my beauty off at home
Already feeling love sick
Into her ear I whisper
“Goodnight my dear, I must go
I’d really love to stay but,
Hell’s expecting me back, you know.”
Now my stay in heaven’s over
And it’s time that I must leave
I hope to come back soon
For this heaven, I believe
On my drive back to hell
I try to forget the past
And I whisper: “If there is a God…
Please, next time, make heaven last.”
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From Hell To Heaven, And Back
Contributed by
MisterRight
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Wednesday, 21st August 2002 @ 09:27:00 AM in AEST
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It’s a cloudy Monday morning
Last night I came back from heaven
Now it’s off to work
Usually around eleven
I pick up my angel
For work, she’s on my way
As she gets in the car, I think
Will it be different today?
Now we’re on our way
Heading towards our work
She looks over and says, “smile”
So I throw her a little smirk
As the day moves on
My mood slowly dies
All that gets me through
Is that look in her eyes
I drop her off at home
And kiss that beautiful face
She leaves and heavens gone
Gone without a trace
Each Monday before she leaves
The same verse she hears from me
“What are you doing tonight?
It’s you I want to see.”
I don’t know why I ask
The answer I already knew
“I don’t know, I’ll call you later.”
She may not know, but I do
So I drive myself home
Trying to keep my thoughts at bay
On my way home I see a sign
It reads: Hell – A Few Hours Away
I get myself home
I toss my shoes at the stair
And sit myself at the computer
Just hoping she’s there
I sign myself online
And it’s her that I see
So I send her a message
“Tonight, will you have time for me?”
“No, Sorry
I’m going out with another.”
“I’ll call when I get home.”
With those words my heart shudders
Because of those words, my plans
For the night have been set
I’ll lay awake by the phone
Waiting for the glimpse of heaven I’ll get
I’m not sure exactly when
But asleep I fell
To awake the next morning
For my second day in hell
Today’s my day off
But I’ll stop in to see
My angel who’s working
She’s where I want to be
Today I’m all right
Though my minds doing laps
Tonight I may see her
For a little while perhaps
And that’s what happened
A visit to heaven again
“Tonight I’ll be with him,
He’s coming at one A.M.”
Snapped back to hell
But I’ve been here before
I want to hide my eyes
And sprint for the door
But I don’t run, I stay
For I love her too true
I love this heaven too much
What else can I do?
Now it’s quarter to one
Time for me to go
A quick hug and kiss goodbye
Before my tears start to flow
So I drive back to hell
It’s starting to feel like home
I sit with pen in hand
And write her another poem
I picture him holding her
Lying in his bed
A thought I don’t want
But can’t erase from my head
I picture him kissing her
Her saying the words I long to hear
I lay alone in my bed
Wishing she was near
When I can’t take anymore
I write her a letter or two
My heart, I send through the computer
But what good does it do?
So many words
Must have typed them all
Maybe they’re not in the right order
Maybe they’re not the right words at all
Alarm goes off again
I have to work at eight
But I’m so damn tired
I was up so damn late
So I stroll into work
Trying to hide my hell in my heart
Please, don’t rub me the wrong way
Today, you don’t want to start
I leave work by twelve
All I want is a nap
But I want to know that she’s home
At my computer I sit, my fingers I tap
Now it’s two P.M.
No sign of her yet
So I drag myself to bed
Still, I won’t sleep, I bet
Wednesdays a tough day
She may or may not call
I’m really not sure
I’m not sure at all
But she does and we talk
But it’s always the same
I hope and I hope
Then I hear his name
Tonight she’ll go with him
They’ll go somewhere and drink
I’ll be here planning my trip
Tomorrow I leave for heaven again, I think
Last night was hard to get through
Though I made it once again
When I see her, we could argue
But why waste now with then?
Thursdays are the strange ones
For we have to start anew
Though it seems nothings changing
Keep trying, is what I do
So Thursday I spend Trying
To leave my hell behind
I’m on my way back to heaven
I hope she’ll let me stay this time
I usually arrive in heaven
Towards the end of Thursday night
And my angel leaves with a kiss
If we managed to avoid a fight
That night I sleep easy
My best sleep all week
For I made it back to heaven
And the feeling that I seek
So Friday we work
We work for most the day
Friday night comes
And I ask her, “Please stay.”
Stay with me forever
Forever in my arms
I promise to protect you
From all of life’s harms
At this point I feel her
Slowly pull away
She doesn’t move an inch
Just no response to say
I just want her to believe
All I say is real
And though she doesn’t say it
I think I see how she feels
So I try to bite my tongue
So I don’t leave heaven behind
What else does she need
To help her make up her mind?
I drop her off at home
With heaven at its peak
A passionate kiss goodnight
My knees feeling so weak
Saturday moves on in
I work hours before she
I count the minutes down
It’s her I want to see
She comes into work
And I’m greeted with a smile
I have this feeling of completeness
If only for awhile
After work, Saturday night
We go drinking with some friends
As soon as it starts
The night always seems to end
But on this night she knows I’m hers
And I feel as if she’s mine
Though a feeling of confusion
Lingers in the back of my mind
I tell her I love her
As I always do
And she answers my question
“Yes, I want to be with you.”
We should be together
But for some reason, it’s not so
Then I realize, one more night
And it’s back to hell I go
Saturday night I sleep
Three hours maybe four
I’ve given all I am
Is she waiting for something more?
Sunday, here and gone so fast
It comes and goes so quick
I drop my beauty off at home
Already feeling love sick
Into her ear I whisper
“Goodnight my dear, I must go
I’d really love to stay but,
Hell’s expecting me back, you know.”
Now my stay in heaven’s over
And it’s time that I must leave
I hope to come back soon
For this heaven, I believe
On my drive back to hell
I try to forget the past
And I whisper: “If there is a God…
Please, next time, make heaven last.”
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by Lia on
Wednesday, 21st August 2002 @ 09:44:11 AM AEST
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| ya know..I had a boyfriend like this once. After 6 years of being a convience..I simply told him, you can't have your cake and eat it too..and walked away. I know have an absolutely wonderful husband and two beautiful children. I hate to think where my life would be if I hadn't decided to put myself first. Good luck to you... |
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by ginsdance on
Wednesday, 21st August 2002 @ 10:30:17 AM AEST
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I had a BF like that once, and now he's my best-friend. It's REALLY hard when you love someone to have to watch them walk away, and no one can know the hell that another goes through, because we all go through it alone.
*Ginsdance* |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by Unaekseveer1 on
Wednesday, 21st August 2002 @ 01:20:01 PM AEST
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Hang on a minute Curtis! Does this girl have an identical twin sister living in England?
Sorry that was insensitive!
I wish you all the very best mate, I know exactly how you feel for her and what you've been going through!
Excellently put into words, and I wish I could add that you're gonna be better off without her, but I just don't know myself?
Thankyou for letting me know I'm not alone though.
With love
Dean |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by Clarity on
Wednesday, 21st August 2002 @ 11:36:13 PM AEST
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awwww man....why can't i find a guy like u, eh??? lol
i'm sorry things didn't work out better for u, but u quite obviously deserve someone much better. good luck and keep writing!
jen |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by MnMnMsrcool on
Friday, 30th August 2002 @ 11:44:25 AM AEST
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| that was a really good poem! i hope everything goes better for you! keep writing |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by Former_Member on
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| That was a wonderful way to show and vent your pain that the girl had put you through. My advice to you is to be strong and keep going on because your princess will come along. Keep up the writing! =) |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by cryingonmyporch on
Saturday, 21st September 2002 @ 12:40:33 AM AEST
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| it's a very nice poem! It's ice to know that I'm not the only one who finds heaven in all the wrong places. |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by Former_Member on
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| i think that is the longest poem I have ever read in my entire life...but it was really good... I can relate well with it... now I have to go dry my eyes... i really like it though... its really heartfilled... |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by OreO on
Saturday, 2nd November 2002 @ 03:34:50 PM AEST
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The last poem of yours
made me cry but this one
is going to create a river
Ouch!
.::´¯`·..· OreO·..·´¯`::. |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by krazykat on
Monday, 25th November 2002 @ 01:54:01 AM AEST
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| wow, you are a great writer and you speak from the heart great job dont stop i wish you luck and happiness |
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Re: From Hell To Heaven, And Back
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by frozensuicide on
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i love this. its good and i like it! great work!
hug a moose! |
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