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[sid] => 20376
[catid] => 1
[aid] => Mick
[title] => A Moment of Despair
[time] => 2003-07-13 22:35:00
[hometext] =>
[bodytext] => Everything is failing, everything is falling, everything sucks, everything is messed up. I hate myself more than you could ever know, I want to end so much, I want to end it all, I just want to get rid of myself. I am messing it all up, I feel hated by the ones who love me most, I feel like I do nothing for them, I feel like I am worthless, I'm nothing, I'm nothing, I'm nothing. All my intentions are ruined, no one takes them for what they are, I'm stupid, I'm worthless, I'm a waste of time. Why is anyone around me? Why does anyone love me? I'm just messing it all up. I'm just destroying what I hold dear, I'm just ruining everything, ruining it all, screwing everything up. What's my purpose? Why do I hurt everyone I love so dear? Why can't I just go away? Would they really even miss me? I know they would.... I know it... but why? Why do I even matter, when I feel this down? [comments] => 2 [counter] => 206 [topic] => 39 [informant] => Vampy [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => Grief )
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