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[sid] => 174790
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => AFRAID
[time] => 2013-01-11 21:42:08
[hometext] => with love there are many things to fear because you never know when the end is near
[bodytext] => What's wrong with you? I'm scared! Of what? Of loving.. why? Because. Because what? Tell me! I'm scared to love because I don't want to hurt or be hurt. I fear that maybe my love won't be enough or maybe it'll be too much. I love to love until there is no more, I love to be loved until I can't feel the floor. I love love that is yours and that is mine , I love love that is sweeter than California grape wine. I know that kind of love is very hard to find. Maybe that's why I'm scared! What's why? That must be why, because I know the love I want is hard to find, it makes me afraid to find it because I won't want to lose it I don't want to lose her. The only person I know who truly understands. Ok if she means that much to you why are you scared to love her? I'm not, not anymore. So what's the problem? I'm afraid.! Of what? Of trust.. Why? Because I'm afraid of trusting and of being trusted. If I trust then I must believe everything that I'm told. But that's not how life is.. and what if I'm being trusted. That means I can never lie, not that I lie, but what about when people need to be lied to? For their own safety even. Just to know that all someone's trust is in me , the thought of us telling each other everything .. everything is the key word. Everything isn't meant to be revealed I could never reveal my deepest secrets because they hurt me, why would I want to relive that pain and suffering. It frightens me knowing the risks we have to take in relationships, but she's worth my trust! If I didn't trust her we wouldn't have made it this far, if she didn't trust me she wouldn't have stuck around. I will say to the world that I really do trust her, and I really do like her, I can't say I'm in love yet but I could get there. I wouldn't dare leave her side because she hasn't left mine, she is my ride or die! So you say all of that but yet you still scared? Yes I'm still scared and I always will be. I like being scared, she helps me get over it! That's what I like more than anything , no matter how scared I've gotten I haven't left, and no matter how worried or upset she got she never left, instead of leaving me she's helping me, instead of being rude to me and leaving me she's being sweet and showing me the affection I need. That's what makes my scare rate go down, her determination to love me, to make me love her, she has that ability over me, she can read my mind I hate it sometimes because I can tell when she's reading me. Whenever something is wrong with me it's like she senses it it makes me even more comfortable with her, it makes me want to be with her even more. So yes I'm scared because I'm really liking her, yes I'm afraid because I would really hate losing her. AFRAID!! Sincerely Mhe.!! [comments] => 1 [counter] => 131 [topic] => 2 [informant] => bambiboo [notes] => Spelling corrected per request ~ Moderator_18 Jan 11, 2013 [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 0 [associated] => [topicname] => LovePoetry )
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