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[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Dear Mania, please let me sleep
[time] => 2012-07-09 14:19:06
[hometext] => it feels a shame to bring this natural high down with medicine...
[bodytext] => Let me sleep mania; i know yes you make life such a dream and i love, i truly do how you make my heart beat and you create the world through my eyes seem so beautiful and sweet and my worries wash away to a reality where the demons are never allowed to stay, all night i lay awake and read through pages of those who have suffered the same fate whose minds disconnect from truth and they spill their stories onto pages that keep my mind safe through these stages in safety blankets where i can hide from the conversations through the walls and footsteps down the halls the words in the stories keep me calm and i just want to see some cherry red blood spilling down my pale arms for no other reason but it seems to listen to those strange things my mind tells me to do an escape from the sea of nerves that greet me on those mornings the butterflies wings cut deep into my stomach lining. and without them i feel free and i can be anything i'm close to God, i'm his spiritual saviour strawberries and wine have a strange new amazing flavor my stomach aches for days of not being fed but there is no appetite, no longing and no need in my head theres shooting stars falling from the corners of my eyes and i hear my clock tick over for every hour i stay awake all night until the harshness of morning light and the voice in my head that reminds me I have a life and it seems a shame to take my medicine and destroy this natural high because it helps me live through the torment that is my normal life. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 125 [topic] => 61 [informant] => cherryamber [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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