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[sid] => 17121
[catid] => 1
[aid] => Mick
[title] => I Don't Know
[time] => 2003-05-06 12:05:00
[hometext] =>
[bodytext] => I don’t know how I got this way, nothing seems alright.
Why do I yell silently? Why do I feel the need to fight? I don’t understand the world around me. I don’t know why I’m going blind. Why do the questions run in my head? Why can’t I say the answers I find? I don’t know what side I’m on. I don’t know where I’m going. Why is my heartbeat getting faster? Why is my mind slowing? I don’t know where I am. I don’t know why I explode. Why is the world against me? Why am I in information overload? I can’t find my self. Where have I went? Why do you look at me strangely? Why is my sanity completely bent? I don’t know why my head is on backwards. I don’t know who I am. Why don’t you help me or do you not give a damn? I don’t know why I’m confused. I don’t know how to live. Why do I hurt those around me? Why can’t I learn to live? I don’t know how I can care so much and not care at all. Why do I verbally treat others like a non-reacting wall? I don’t know how I can be a brute. I don’t know if this is me. Why don’t you tell me the answers I ask of? Why don’t you listen to my plea? I don’t recognize anything. I didn’t realize I was so mean. Why do you treat me with silence? Why do I make such a scene? I don’t know why I can’t help myself. I don’t know why I beg and cry. Why do you see nothing but a monster? Why don’t you listen to my cry? I’ll never hear the words that you’ll never say to me. I don’t know why I stand here waiting. I’m going to take my leave. I’ll never know and you’ll never help me. I’d rather go blind than have you help me see. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 254 [topic] => 36 [informant] => TundraHydra [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => Suicide )
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