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[sid] => 155106
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[aid] => mick
[title] => starving
[time] => 2009-11-18 02:41:05
[hometext] => in a vain effort to stop an obsessive addiction to slamming meth, i left california with my then boyfriend back to his hometown in rual missouri. turns out they have meth in rual missouri
[bodytext] => performing mundane tasks in order to mask the ferocious need to get high i wanna cough so bad i can taste it the world is cold, grey, and shapless but im sure a mean dose would bring much needed definition back to my painfully blurry reality wasen't the reason for just a drastic relocation to be free of such teathers im afraid i can't shake this monster this time right this second , i just don't care this is who i am im certain of this how do i deal without reinfecting him as well perhaps this obsession is what has caused my recent episodes of depression,halucination, and nausea i feel dope sick how i woulg graciously invite the elixer of my desires into my hungrily awaiting vein but no here i sit crying, fighting wave after wave of nausia alone and lonley i'll never make it through this with any kind of graciouness or poise i wish i could stop staring at my veins i wish i wasen't nausious i wish i wouldn't cry i wish i was high [comments] => 1 [counter] => 232 [topic] => 66 [informant] => weezel666 [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 10 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => drugabuse )
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