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[aid] => mick
[title] => I am who I am
[time] => 2009-03-30 23:27:15
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[bodytext] => I try to make it through my life in my own way, but there's you, I try to make it through these lies, but its always there. You don't know how my heart aches, how the tears flow. Why did you have to hurt me, why couldn't I trust you. You think you know who I am, when all you have seen is the surface, yet your judgements are snap quick, and here I sit laughing and crying. You don't know what you missed, all the years away. You don't know who I am, this tired and worn soul. I am stronger because of you, but I know the weakness of my heart still remains. My vision was clouded for so long, till reality finally settled in. I don't need youm I don't want you, I just want to be alone, to continue my life how I want. You don't know what you missed, you don't know what you could of had. Now you sit there talking to me, like a stranger in a strange place. I can see your tears, for lost time. For memories never had, its your own fault. I deserved better, instead I got nothing. There will always be a hole in my heart, where you were suppose to fill. All that remains there is the sadness, of nights laying awake. Wanting so much to be held, to be told it would be okay. There is so much hate deep inside, so much anger at how you just up and left. You don't know what your decision did, creating ripples in my pond. I have suffered for so long, no one there to guide me in my life. No one to show me the right and wrong, instead I had to learn all on my own. But I am my own man, I know what is the core of me. And there is no room for you, that door closed so long ago. I am who I am, because of who I have become. You had no influence, you had no claim. I hope some part of you cries, for the lost time. For the memories we would never share, and for the hurt you brought me. This is who I am, I will live the life I want. You are just a shadow, I stopped fearing so long ago. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 178 [topic] => 43 [informant] => -Sinner- [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 9 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => oops )
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