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[bodytext] => A flow of oxygen, An artificial life Pumping into my blood stream So much effort behind dried eyes. Nothing comes easily now With this burden of making things right I just wish I could leave Instead of trying so hard for an unwanted life The tears that used to matter Become just a daily routine And the things I used to live for Now seem so cold and unseen Is it really to much to ask for, To not have to fight through everyday To smile to make everyone else happy When all it does is get in my way The cuts slowly let out the mess I really am And I wish there was some way to make them understand There’s no hope for this getting better Without some artificial drug And I’m beginning to drift farther away From feeling other’s love I don’t want to be some robot My moods based all off one tiny pill When it flows from my system All built up will quickly spill I have no reason to stay here I’ve been gone for long anyways The only thing that remains of me Is a chemical put in each day They could easily replace me With anybody else These emotions I’ve been having I’m no longer myself And there’s no reason from them to love me No reason for them to care I can’t keep a conversation Without drifting into a stare I have ideas that scare me And I keep them to myself I spend most of my time Wishing I was someone else This pain that I feel each day Gets harder and harder to bare I know that I’ve messed up before But is this really fair? I can’t get close to anyone Because I just want to be alone And my reasoning for distance Is completely unknown I have to lie about everything To keep what’s left of normality And stay away from doctors Who just create another form of me I’ve lost everything I once believed in And who I really am I’m starting to not remember How it feels to understand All that happens around me Seems so unreal and unfair The urges that I have Are so difficult to bare I only hang on to this life to keep everyone else okay I wish I could do something to make myself feel better If only for a day I know my only solution And its nearly impossible to achieve Without hurting everyone around me So I will just roll down my sleeve Hide what I have done to myself Cry behind closed doors Play my music loudly While I kneel onto the floor Every action that makes me happy Is a secret kept So those among me Cant see the pain behind the nights I’ve wept I think its time for me to go now But I don’t know what to do For if I chose to end my life My family may chose too But hanging onto everyday Living for someone else Is driving me so far away From the time I was once myself. [comments] => 3 [counter] => 227 [topic] => 32 [informant] => anonymous1212 [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 20 [ratings] => 4 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => SadPoetry )
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