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[sid] => 136581
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Decisions
[time] => 2007-08-08 14:55:10
[hometext] => Not poetically strong, but perhaps that's because I'm uncomfortable with feeling unsure.
[bodytext] => Joking about happy pills, But the truth is I’m scared. Reading up on side-effects, Forgetting all the pain I haven’t shared. I think about my great friends, Feeling as if I’ve been living two lives. But is the answer in this bottle, Something to wash away the lies? I assure myself it wasn’t that bad, All those years of pretending. But really I just can’t see how This will bring about an ending. I feel as if this is an admission of guilt, That I swallow down the weight of fault. I can’t see how this will help, That this pain and evil can halt. I don’t feel capable of deciding, I’m in desperate need of advice, That not taking anti-depressants Simply isn’t worth the price. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 222 [topic] => 61 [informant] => Chamaron [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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