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[sid] => 134926
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => I am Tired
[time] => 2007-06-04 07:43:17
[hometext] => my previous relationship
[bodytext] => I am Tired. Of feeling I’ve given all myself to you Of feeling so unattractive because you said am fat Of feeling I cannot stand up for myself Of feeling like your slave, ironing, cooking, cleaning, washing Of seeing happy couples out on the streets loving and laughing Of feeling miserable and not remembering the last time you made me laugh Of being cheated on and then lied to my face being told “it’s all in your head” Of counting how many names I can recall of the ***** that you’ve cheated with Then u wonder why I cannot have sex, not make love Because that disappeared when you broke my heart the very first time, then I held on……. Of being told that am too fat here and there, I have stretch marks A sign of the struggle and pain I went through bearing our son Of feeling am not a good enough mother Of feeling sick when I think about all you’ve done to me Of being your punch bag every time you loose your temper Of cleaning after you when you smash a glass or throw a plate of food Of not being able to question why you have acted in a certain manner Like, who am I to question you king of the throne Of feelings that I cannot have my friends around For you make them feel uncomfortable and they don’t come back Of feeling disrespected and misunderstood Of feeling taken advantage of Running “here” and “there” to get “this” and “that” And not getting a fraction the same in return Of telling you that I need “this” and “that” only for you to say you have no money when you are the one with an income Of feeling used to you advantage Of feeling the abuse all through again Tears when you are on top of me an explosion of pain That I’ve held on for too long You are the one to bring it all out. Of being tired of trying to love and please you Of feeling am loosing my self dignity Of knowing I deserve better love Because what we have is not love I am tired……tomorrow is a new day Chance to make another change. sinyorita [comments] => 1 [counter] => 151 [topic] => 22 [informant] => sinyorita [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => LostLove )
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