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[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Next To Me In a Bed Of Lies
[time] => 2007-01-15 23:37:09
[hometext] => perfecitonist's relationships, they're pretty messed up
[bodytext] => I'm trying to figure myself out Could I have a minute please? Before I attach to someone else I'm gonna try to figure out myself. Start the watch please Tic-Toc, Tic-Toc, Its gone by I've made progress But could I have more time? Better yet: pick a different person Move another one down my line Am I afraid to go too deep? Will these walls always be here? I know if I'm cut I'll bleed Is it the existance of the knife I fear? Was I just settling for short of perfect? But do I deserve it? Had I been happy in the first place? Was it in the back of my mind "its not worth it"? But, if so, Why? Is there somebody To keep my satisfied? To entertain not even a simple whim Maybe its been my problem all along, didn't I try? The bar is set too high, None are meant to reach People keep going by and by Without a lesson to learn or teach. This bar is beyond my grasp, as well However, no one will know where I don't reveal anything, If you can't tell If something was exposed, my thin lineing could tear By and by Down on the line Will I ever be satified? No, but time will tell for sure Was I happy in the beginning Had there been a chip? Was there anyone happy lying and sinning Was it worth the relationship? If only, I could accept But I can't deal with mirrors Let alone another to intercept I'm unhappy with imperfection Let nothing slide on by Without such a small selection It never leaves my mind. If I hate myself How will I ever learn To love someone else? If I can't open up How will anyone know If one's ever enough? When will the real me show? If the problme lies within myself How will I ever lie with someone else? [comments] => 1 [counter] => 177 [topic] => 73 [informant] => SmileSkinDeep [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 8 [ratings] => 2 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => abstract )
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