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[aid] => mick
[title] => Never Should Have Been
[time] => 2006-08-20 08:42:52
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[bodytext] => This isn’t how it should have been…now I have nothing and no one. It all went so wrong after you left; now I am alone. My tears can’t even help. I don’t even have a chance to make it better. Never better….always worse. I just want this finished…. I want this done. I want it buried. Broken. Beaten. Hurt and dead. All the things I wish I wasn’t. I have nothing. So let me bleed. Let me end this with the only way I can. Make it like it never was. I wish I could say goodbye, but I’m stuck here waiting….alone and broken. I’m ending it the only way I can. The only power I have. The only thing that will make everyone see what this does to me. I hate everything I’ve become. I can’t live with myself here. I can’t think of any way this might work. I just need to end it. This isn’t how it should have been, but it doesn’t matter now, because I’m going to bleed the poison dry. I love you and it took too long to figure it out and I’m sorry I’ll never get to say goodbye…. This isn’t how it should have been…. And I hate myself for making the same mistakes again. To lose someone else. And I can’t live with myself now, that I am the cause of it all. I can’t live knowing I destroyed my life. And my world is going black and grey. And I just want it to stop…this pain inside. I just want to make it all go away….everything… And I’ll always be sorry I never got to say goodbye. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 158 [topic] => 13 [informant] => MG_Akela22090 [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => DarkPoetry )
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