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[sid] => 124590
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Undeserved
[time] => 2006-08-17 14:03:49
[hometext] => Very basically written poem, but I thought some people might be able relate to it.
[bodytext] => I sit alone in my room Loneliness, pain, hate my only companions I stare blankly at my reflection Wishing I were someone else Someone beautiful and caring Someone who always knows the right thing to say Tears pour down my face And I rise and turn the mirror away Can’t bear to gaze upon the grotesque features Of my worst enemy, Of the person who makes my life hell Who pushes those who love me away Of the person I hate more than anyone Of myself I think of my friends, those people Who make my life worth living But in a way They cause me more pain Because I don’t deserve their love And I think of the boy That I love beyond reason The boy who paints my life with colour Whose love is slowly killing me, Because I know that I don’t deserve it I don’t deserve any of it: Of the amazing life I’ve been given Of the wonderful family I have And suddenly I become calm I realise that I no longer have to blight The lives of those around me An escape. All my problems solved I’ve thought about death before - In fact it’s a perpetual longing For the silent emptiness that I so crave But something has always held me back I so long to jump, But there is always a hand that has a grip on my mind That tiny shed of consciousness That says no, Don’t, People love you And even if that love is undeserved, It still exists And there will be people Who’ll miss you when you go, People I don’t want to hurt any more than I already have And so I wither away in the darkness My soul tortured My existence agony Pain. The only thing I do deserve. [comments] => 1 [counter] => 203 [topic] => 13 [informant] => ButterflyInThorns [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => DarkPoetry )
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