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[sid] => 107284
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => The Child Inside.
[time] => 2005-10-07 19:51:52
[hometext] => N/A always, abraham
[bodytext] => I am a failure. I am guilt stricken, hanging my head in the endless abhorrence of myself. I am so afraid of the world around me. I am so hurt by the things people do. I don't understand. My memory torments me; wild horses run blindly over ended film, braying shrilly, joints buckling, snapping, keeping me from sleep. And when I sleep; When I sleep I am captive to my dreams; a woolen sun rending the flesh from my fingers, eating away at the pain, leaving me vulnerable, leaving me alone to face the child inside. And I am afraid. I am withering away. Everyday I lose more weight. I look in the mirror and I don't even know the person I see. I am dying and I am afraid to die. There is nothing in this world that I desire. There is nothing left but love, and my love is festering bitter rage. All I want is a warm place. All I want is to feel nothing. All I want is to see God. [comments] => 2 [counter] => 162 [topic] => 75 [informant] => iodinelove [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 5 [ratings] => 1 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => anguished )
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