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[sid] => 105604
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => DEPRESSION'S DEEPENING HOLE by larry lile
[time] => 2005-09-13 08:05:27
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[bodytext] => I am living in my 50th year, here on God's green earth fifty years of loving, and fifty years of hurt I have always managed to handle my pain up until this final year now nothing seems to help my pain or to dry up all of my tears it seems the things I loved to do do not interest me any more now for days, weeks, and months I have been trapped here on my floor I watch TV to numb my pain read books to screen my mind for it's the quiet time, that brings the tears and drives away, the peace,i need to find I know I hurt, the ones I love I can see it in their eyes but even though I see their pain I still sit here Paralyzed Paralyzed by the pain I feel that drives my mind to think that all I need to solve this pain is the courage to make the link between the pistol in my hand and the hurt, I cannot control for then, all my pain would disappear down the tub, my pain would flow i know, that all who love me would forgive me, and offer me help but the biggest problem, that i have is how, to forgive, myself! [comments] => 1 [counter] => 197 [topic] => 61 [informant] => potlicker [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 0 [associated] => [topicname] => selfstruggles )
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