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[aid] => mick
[title] => You DON'T Care About Me!
[time] => 2005-08-11 22:16:29
[hometext] => I’m angry and confused and numb. I don’t want to die any more, but I CAN’T live like this! … And the authorities are ignoring me, so I ONLY had ONE choice.
[bodytext] => I hang on every day, just for the chance that they’ll reach out, and help me, like they said they would…
Knowing its all bullocks and my cries and unlooked.
I sit here, half fractured, carving things they won’t forget.
They’re cheap and manufactured; they’re robotic dick-heads.
Every day my lows get deeper, as fallen words inside of hurt.
Will I find my savior? Or will I emptily disperse?
Crimson silence keeps me lonely, fragile and weak.
And every one is else where, and has given up on me!
Exhaustion pangs but I can’t sleep.
My body is cold and my body aches.
They watch me fall and laugh from behind.
As bleeding pools stain through my mind.
And flash-backs hiss at cold abuse.
Where affection held, a SICK, FAKE USE!
… Cold and still, I’m dead and numb.
And I NEED the help, as there’s no where to run.
‘Coz the place I’m in is black with filth,
And, cuts-and-grime-and, tears-and-guilt!
But no, walk away, and leave me here.
I’m FINE, really! I’ve nothing to fear!
I just know, I’m gonna kill my-self,
And YOU won’t stop me, nor will any one else!
So it won’t even matter,
How screwed up it will be.
Because it isn’t screwed up! …
Because you DON’T, care about me!
[comments] => 7
[counter] => 243
[topic] => 36
[informant] => deathdrop
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You DON'T Care About Me!
Contributed by
deathdrop
on
Thursday, 11th August 2005 @ 10:16:29 PM in AEST
Topic:
Suicide
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I hang on every day, just for the chance that they’ll reach out, and help me, like they said they would…
Knowing its all bullocks and my cries and unlooked.
I sit here, half fractured, carving things they won’t forget.
They’re cheap and manufactured; they’re robotic dick-heads.
Every day my lows get deeper, as fallen words inside of hurt.
Will I find my savior? Or will I emptily disperse?
Crimson silence keeps me lonely, fragile and weak.
And every one is else where, and has given up on me!
Exhaustion pangs but I can’t sleep.
My body is cold and my body aches.
They watch me fall and laugh from behind.
As bleeding pools stain through my mind.
And flash-backs hiss at cold abuse.
Where affection held, a SICK, FAKE USE!
… Cold and still, I’m dead and numb.
And I NEED the help, as there’s no where to run.
‘Coz the place I’m in is black with filth,
And, cuts-and-grime-and, tears-and-guilt!
But no, walk away, and leave me here.
I’m FINE, really! I’ve nothing to fear!
I just know, I’m gonna kill my-self,
And YOU won’t stop me, nor will any one else!
So it won’t even matter,
How screwed up it will be.
Because it isn’t screwed up! …
Because you DON’T, care about me!
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deathdrop
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2005-08-11 22:16:29]
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Re: You DON'T Care About Me!
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by xxbreathlessx on
Thursday, 11th August 2005 @ 10:30:16 PM AEST
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| you have to care and value yourself before you even expect anyone else to. but besisdes that i thought the piece was very heart wrenching. good job ! keep on writing..and hang in there. |
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Re: You DON'T Care About Me!
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by MorningDove on
Thursday, 11th August 2005 @ 11:18:25 PM AEST
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Just for a minute think about this. What if they have exhausted their bag of tricks. What if it is left entirely up to you now to fix yourself. You want them to fix you. They can't if you don't want them to, or won't let them. What, just what if it is left up to you entirely to fix all of it. All your scars, and hurts and emotions? What will you do when you have to come up with the magic? Please think about it.
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Re: You DON'T Care About Me!
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by emystar on
Thursday, 11th August 2005 @ 11:52:08 PM AEST
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It sounds like u need to start liking yourself.
U have to do it for yourself. We let each other down but u r crucifying yourself.
Go look in your mirror and say, I know I'm somebody 'cause God don't make no junk."
It really helped to get me on track. Except yourself and u will start to be free from the inner agonies.
How do I know? 'Cause once i felt the same way u do know. It didn't all happen over night but thank God I'm happy with me.
luv, huggs, prayer,
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Re: You DON'T Care About Me!
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by Demonic_Depression_7625 on
Friday, 12th August 2005 @ 02:08:52 AM AEST
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| you're poem is very effective. i like it a lot. it has a lot of meaning in it which makes it really good. :) |
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Re: You DON'T Care About Me!
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by wikedladi on
Friday, 12th August 2005 @ 02:17:00 AM AEST
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| GREAT WRITE!! most people tend to care only for themselfs.. even if they act as if they care. They only tend to notice when you are gone, that they should have been there. |
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Re: You DON'T Care About Me!
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by Archie on
Friday, 2nd September 2005 @ 11:27:54 PM AEST
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| I don't know exactly what to say to you. Everytime i read your poetry or the stories in them it is like . . . you are a magnet for trouble and heartache. It makes me sad but I think based on past poems I have read by you and life expirience that things always get worse before they get better. I wish it were not true but it is and if you don't deal with the facts of your life with a clear head you will just go through more struggles. That is the truth and it is all I can give you. I say this because I do care. Problems don't magically go away you grow through them and learn from them. If you are making progress then eventually times of refreshing will come. I hope they do come for you and soon. I hope when they come that you will have learned the lessons of your struggles and are better equipped to help others who are like you used to be. |
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Re: You DON'T Care About Me!
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by Dandy on
Tuesday, 14th November 2006 @ 04:11:58 AM AEST
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| What a powerful poem, and it seems to capture the lows we all reach at some point. You are a talented writer |
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