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[aid] => mick
[title] => I'm An EX-SELF-HARMER.
[time] => 2004-07-26 02:16:06
[hometext] => It's my story of self harm. It contains in short detail, what went through me, what got drained from me and what I received from it. I've written the good and bad things... And also what emotional scars i've been left with now that i've quit.
[bodytext] => HERE COMES THE 'KEEPER' OF ALL DRAINED LIFE. HERE COMES THE 'PREACHER' OF BLOODIED AND STAINED KNIFES. There goes the warmth, That's keeping me firm. There goes more crimson, With each cut, in turn. I can feel the strength, Being sucked from my bones. I can feel the hate, Starting to roam. I know the truth, Is that i'm dieing inside! That nothing can save me, From this poisonous ride. That with each cut, And each and every slit. Piece by piece, I loose more grip. ... But all the while, I'm feeling new pain. And i love that kick, Of the viscous flames! I love the pain, That starts of my wrist. That spreads so rapidly, On-wards, to my fist. ... But after a while. I start to regret. Because my scars show, And i still can't forget. I WAS GIVEN PAIN, TO BLOCK MY OTHER STAINS, BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, I STILL CAN'T WASH MY PROBLEMS AWAY. And the truth hits me hard! I CAN'T LIVE THIS WAY! I can't escape, The smiling scars! It's clear to all, That i SELF-HARMED! .... I've quit. Self-harm for now. I still miss the kicks, And i still get the frowns. And i know one day soon, I'll start it off again. Because with out that stregth, I CAN'T LIVE WITH MY HEAD! But inside for-ever, I carry deep scars. Deep inside i'm mucked. Where i've been so ripped apart! [comments] => 2 [counter] => 143 [topic] => 43 [informant] => deathdrop [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => oops )
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