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[sid] => 54413
[catid] => 1
[aid] => mick
[title] => Jealous of That Girl
[time] => 2004-07-01 18:40:05
[hometext] => I hate myself for this so much.
[bodytext] => Me, selfish obnoxious annoying ***** she, everyone <3 she. I am force fed [happy pills]. she can drink pure chlorine (wtf?) and be beautiful. I act happy and peppy, She has amazing artwork in blood. Bloodshed=more medicine, therapy, happiness (what!!) for me. She is praised! So I am jealous of her lonesomeness... so who's fault is it, that I see her through my eyes? Like, she's suicidal. But everyone <3 she. I'm still HAPPY and nobody <3 me. See? See me be needy? Dependency on: 1. drugs (legal) 2. vanity [being an attention-wh*re]. That girl is alone an goddamned everything and I bet she'd lose it in a second but I'm not sure? Do I envy someone I've only seen, and come to suspect as suicidal and ... bulimic? How selfish to want her spirit just incase she decides to kill herself. I'll take the pretty face too. [comments] => 0 [counter] => 155 [topic] => 48 [informant] => Suz [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => EmotionalPoetry )
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