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[sid] => 23494
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[aid] => Mick
[title] => always
[time] => 2003-09-19 11:05:00
[hometext] => a hopeless lament about meaninglessness and repetition. a hollow cry of anguish from a withered creature too dead to die. the most hopeless pile of drivel i've ever spewed.
[bodytext] => i don't know what to tell you why i'm still here, i cannot say tried suicide failed several times guess i'll always be in the way gave up trying to make a difference silently slipped through the cracks i'm no fool, learned my lesson fast it will always be this way always always feel so ***** cold inside always feel like some part of me has died always alone, left to die always, they say, "don't give up. try again" always i wonder "why?" every reason, both big and small just seems like so much ***** now Nothing matters, nothing can make it worthwhile censor myself so they'll stop staring at me i am so ***** sick of them staring at me slit my wrists to feed The Machine fat from buried hopes and cremated dreams still i remain, still feel the pain stabbing the one who birthed me damning her for this curse frustration like i've never known borne of futility's mocking smile constant repetition, constant repetition this is surely Hell a realm of further tortures cannot exist and even the brightest stars, burn for Nothing and the sun never sets on the sorrow that Meaning's absence has wrought chasing stray bullets and drunk drivers something's got to give so used to lying, hiding that i don't know if i've lost it yet buried myself so deep inside i can't even tell if i've snapped this semblance of sanity, just a hardened mask chinked armor shows torn flesh i'm bleeding, but never dying traveling the predictable circle of "close calls" that are never close enough i fight to die and always lose i'll always be so cold inside i'll always live inside this lie always alone, damned to never die always staring at the sky endless well of tears, flooding my eyes so hollow inside, even fake when i cry always, they say, "don't give up. you've gotta try" always be here and i don't know why [comments] => 2 [counter] => 302 [topic] => 13 [informant] => Cancer [notes] => [ihome] => 0 [alanguage] => english [acomm] => 0 [haspoll] => 0 [pollID] => 0 [score] => 0 [ratings] => 0 [editpoem] => 1 [associated] => [topicname] => DarkPoetry )
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